NEW YEAR........

It's the New Year... Again. Somehow I feel like 2009 just started not long ago, and now everything's about to wrap up to start 2010. We're not having any New Year party or anything, but my mom and dad did get some snacks and other munchies for stomach entertainment while watching the TV countdown. But I'll most probably be watching Rain's Fashion concert instead. Haha.

Every new year I always tell myself, I want this year to be different, I want this year to be well-lived, I want this year to be better than the last. But it always doesn't work out that way. All the time, it comes right back down to following the school timetable, the zombie-like life of waking up, eating, going to school, study study, work work work, sleep. I really really really want to break out of this mode of living this year. I don't know if I'm able to do it, but I'll try my best. I'll try to live like there's no tomorrow, try to do new things and step out of my comfort zone once in a while. Along the way, I hope to discover more of who I really am, my purpose in life, and the bare essence and philosophy of living. Haha, sounds a bit over-the-top right? But it's something that I really want to achieve... that standpoint in life where you know where you want to go, who you are, what you live for, and how you can be a better person. It's not really enlightenment, but more like fufilling the journey of self-discovery.

Now I wish I'm back in New York, the Big Apple, joining in their New Year Celebrations in Time's Square.


Today I went to watch Sherlock Holmes with my Dad. I think my Dad and my Aunt are the two people whom I have watched the most movies with. I like the director Guy Ritchie's interpretation of Sherlock Holmes, as much as the classic version. But in the movie, I would say I prefer Dr Watson to Sherlock Holmes. Watson somehow seems to have more class and edge when he does things. Haha... I heard that the British tabloids nicknamed Jude Law (the actor who plays Dr Watson) Hot-son. LOL. It's a good movie, I must say, Sherlock Holmes. I can't wait for the sequel. Judging from the ending, I'm 99% sure there's gonna be one. =))

yesterday was my aunt's wedding. We didn't do a super elaborate job nor a over the top wedding, just booked a small salon room in Conrad Hotel just enough for four tables and around 30 plus close family and friends. I didn't wear my prom dress as planned, I switched to another dark purple dress I had in my closet. I won't publish any photos on my blog, I personally do not feel safe flaunting my personal life and my loved ones on a webpage that is accessible to not only friends but the international public as well. I'll most probably be posting them on Facebook on a later date.

The food was super sumptous yesterday, thanks to the chinese restaurant at Conrad. I talked a lot with Nancy (Uncle Mark's elder sister) and Ron, her boyfriend. Oh, and they had a really beautiful wedding cake. It wasn't the usual white cream covered cake, but a fruitcake with LOTS, and I mean LOTS of fruits on top as topping. Not just any other fruits, but lots of BERRIES. Forgive me, a super diehard fan of Berries (any berries, strawberries, blueberries, raspberries, you name it!) speaking here...

Yeah, so I'm back in Singapore, nothing much has changed about me, just that I have this accent I cannot shake off until about 2-3weeks later, and a little bit change in status. Cheng Hui called, and I spoke to her in my "Singaporean accent" but it all seemed so so unnatural. Like I was forcing it or something....
Sheryl contacted me about this job offer as a telemarketer with Prudential, but I'll have to turn it down. My parents don't want me to work at all. So I guess I'm back with my housewife training. Haha.

Oh, and guess what, I'm learning to play Taylor Swift songs on my guitar, and it's working out great. =))

Christmas.

Finally, it's Christmas. Yeah, so MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone. =))

I've already opened the presents from my cousins, and here's what I've got... er, Oil control paper from the brand Anna Sui (with a Anna Sui case), two dolls which are keychains (and which look a bit scary, to me), a skirt, a coin purse and a Bvlgari Fragrance set with soap and stuff (but the soap's scent is too overpowering for me....). I can't say i'm disappointed with the presents, but I must say the dolls are freaky. I've never liked dolls since the beginning of my existance, and it still stays true after 16 years of age.

I'm not going to spell what my friends gave me. It'll take the whole day. But these group of presents are much better than the ones from the above group. Oops...=X No offence....

The Christmas tree at Rockefeller Square has been beautifully lighted up since my birthday, and I finally got a chance to see it. It's like super-duperly-huge, and magnificent in every way possible. Of course, a trip to that area has to include ice-skating, which I am miserably bad at. So, I came home with no less than a couple of bruises, but i'll survive. Haha.

We're having sort of a sleep-over thing tonight, so everyone's (about 23 odd people) are squashed in Nick's home and Trish's & Aaron's house next door. Half of the 23 are alsleep by now, it's almost 2 a.m. here... just completed the Christmas countdown party. I love it that it's a day behind Singapore. Going to church tonight (now it's 1.55 a.m. on the 25th of dec here), to stretch our vocal chords with songs. Haha. I can't even bear to sleep, just want to treasure every second of time I have here. Some magical things have happened as usual. I think it's 1 degree outside.

I'll be back on Sunday. I don't want to. Life is so much more relaxing and fun up here. I wish it was like this back home. Yeah, I wish.

이승가 ~! 이승가 ~~!!!

Lee Seung Gi's performance. I find it a little bit funny, cause some of his dance moves are a bit too like "acting-cute". Haha... I like his song lyrics, they really mean something. Not to worry, his other performances are not so "act-cutish". LOLS. Nick and Erik were like impersonating Lee Seung Gi in the living room, and THAT was HILARIOUS. Well, it was already a miracle they got more than half of the Korean Lyrics right. Haha...

Lee Seung Gi is actually quite multi-talented. I just found out that he can speak Korean, Japanese and English. He plays the guitar and piano, and did well in school also. He was class president in both middle and high school, and he managed to graduate with a Bachelor Degree on International Trade and Commerce despite his crazy schedule. He acts, hosts and sings. A part of me is like screaming "That's the life I want to live!!!" while I was reading his wikipedia article. Haha.

It's going to be Christmas Eve in like 1 min from now here. Merry CHRISTMAS!

Time, PLEASE CRAWL.

I can't believe that December is about to end. The thought of recieving O level results, going back to school just SUCKS. Totally. It feels like you've just got your life back and somebody's about to snatch it away from you all over again. I'm scared to see my O level results. I dread to return to the zombie like life of non-exisitence, where your life revolves around a timetable of stuff, half of which you don't even like. I wish I could fast forward to University, where I can study and do the things that I want. My uncle wants me to aim for Harvard or Yale. Nuts. I don't know where i'm going yet, I just know that I won't be taking up a local Uni. They don't have the course I want.

I'll be back in Singapore on Sunday... Just in time for my Aunt's wedding. Uncle Mark is coming over on Sunday also, we'll see how things go. I'll be re-wearing my prom dress for that. I didn't spend more than a hundred for a one-time wear.

I just bought a new dress yesterday. I don't know why I did but I just did. Ok, I don't make sense. I just bought it cause it was cheap, like S$28 around. The rest of the gang bought more things than me, of course. Trish even got a USD 300+ bag, which we all thought was over priced, but she thought it was "cheap"... It still snows, which is good. I oughta take in as much of this weather as I can. Today I went to the school, met some of the freshmen. Seriously I think that this batch is better than the previous one. They installed a new recording studio ( like those to record music in CDs) in the school, so I'm going to play around with that with Marisol tmr. Went out with the boys today too, Snowball fight in Central Park. HAHA. That was super FUN. Nick and I got 2nd place in the snowball fight. Lols. Nobody has ever managed to beat Ashley and Erik in snowball fights (unsurprisingly they got first place). EVER. I can't wait to meet Jamal tomorrow. He's got a mind like Qun Jie's (a.k.a super genius who tops the Grade with ease) but can dance like MJ. haha, that's something that Qun Jie can never do, i guess. lols.

I'm going downstairs for supper now. Apple pie. YUMMO.

I'm gone with the wind again, I guess. For those of you who know where the hell I am, keep it low key. That is, don't tell anyone. For those who don't, you'll just have to guess. =) I still have internet access, I still can blog, and I'll be back soon after Christmas. That's all I can say. There is a snowflake stuck on the window now. Haha. Sometimes when I look out the window, this place feels so foreign yet so familiar, to an extend that it is a little welcoming.

I can't blog for long, got to go sleep. It's 10.52 pm here, and i've got a whole day of Christmas shopping with Mari and the gang tmr.

Yesterday I had this really strange dream that a big dog ran into my house and started jumping around everywhere. And that I was studying this strange thing related to atomics. (I hate Science, so i don't know how that got there) So I patted the dog, my family came to see what was happening, and I took a look at the dog collar to see whose dog it was. The words on the dog tag were all korean. So okay, we fed the dog, and used this very high tech computer screen thing that is connected to all the apartments in my block. Each apartment is represented by a green square on the screen, and if anything happened to any of the apartments, the square would be red. There was one particular red square, and we selected that, and the "crisis" was "missing dog". The dog, who was also looking at the computer screen, suddenly sat up, like he realised something, and walked out the door, possibly back home. WEIRD!!

People say that dreams are supposed to mean something, but what the heck does that mean?

I'm very proud of the huge stack of stuff that I have thrown out of my study room. Haha... Hopefully I can transform that junkyard into a place where I can actually sit down and write something by the end of this month. =) I feel like going shopping again, but I really must not spend anymore cash. I'm not broke or something, in fact I have a substantial amount in my treasury, but I just saw how much we spend on our Korea trip. It was crazy. we really splurged like mad. I can't tell you how much, but it's more than what most people can afford. Bottom line? Given my character, I feel guilty about every penny I spend. So, I've become a saving freak now, trying to save up as much as I can. But I'm not getting a job. I just don't have the time to do so.

I dropped by the FaceShop at Northpoint yesterday. And oh my gosh. I bought a eyeshadow from the FaceShop in Korea for like 6,900 won (about S$8), and I saw it in the FaceShop here selling for S$16.90. That's almost twice the price! No wonder some of the ladies on my tour bought Suitcases of make-up. and I'm not using figurative language. They really did buy suitcases of make-up and skin care products.

I can't believe I'll be seeing Nick soon in a couple of days. I really am at a loss of what to say. The truth, lies or just nothing and avoid the subject. Argh. Mari's mom has gone back to Mexico for a visit, so I guess that spells no more Spanish Lessons for me this winter.

Now, it's time to plan the feast that i'm supposed to cook on Monday.

My new music player on the left to this blog post is so tacky looking... But I had to change the player skin in order to play certain songs that I like. Ah well.

Yahoo News just had this article about Facebook scams. Like people hack into your facebook accounts and just like pretend to be you and try to extort cash from your friends, something like that. Thank God I don't ever use the chat function in Facebook. So, if any of y'all see me trying to chat you up on Facebook, you know it's a phony.

Just watched the Oprah show, she was talking about Miracle Kids, children who weren't supposed to survive, but they did, a reminder that miracles indeed do happen. I like to watch the Oprah show, it's really meaningful and serves as a constant reminder of how lucky you are, and how to improve your life, lifestyle and be a better person. It's sad that Oprah is going to end her talkshow on CBS after next year's season... I hope she does come up with a new talkshow.

Wooh. I successfully uploaded my leftover Korea Photos from my Dad's camera and my own camera into the computer. I did it extra slowly and extra carefully, so I won't have to go through DéJá Vu. Hopefully I'll drop by the photo shop later in the day or the week to get some of the good shots developed. Actually, I miss the old type of cameras. Like the ones with the film and the peep hole. Those really make capturing pictures fun. Like you pay extra attention when taking pictures, cause you know you only have one shot, unlike digital cameras, which you can delete the pictures. And there's the part where you wait eagerly for the photos to be developed, so you can view them. With digital cameras, that joy of collecting your freshly developed photos from the shop is gone -- You can just view the pictures immediately. And with old cameras, you wouldn't face the risk of your photos being accidentally deleted by some stupid USB connection fault. =(

I wish the stack of papers under my study desk could just clear and sort itself out. I'm not in the mood of spring cleaning. at all. Why is everyone so busy and fussed up about cleaning the house? It's not even Chinese New Year yet, and nobody's coming over for Christmas. We'll all be out, so I don't get the point.

Hanguk, Sarang haeyo.

I'm feeling much better today. I'm still sore about losing those photos, but at least i'm not so beat-up about it. Thank you Veron for offering to help me recover those photos...!! Thank you, really, a lot, whole-heartedly.

Ok, here is what I was supposed to post yesterday:

When you're in Seoul, don't ever forget to shop. Seriously... especially for girls. Their earrings, bangles and hairclips can be much cheaper than Singapore, if you know where to buy. Well, first of all, my number one recommendation for shopping is at Myongdong. But shop where the street stalls are, not in the large department stores. The street stalls offer a much better deal. And the cosmetics are really cheap. Especially face masks. Haha... Namdaemun is also another shopping area, if you're travelling with elderly. The stuff there are mostly for older people, and if you're a antique or furniture lover, head down there too. Well, the Orchard Road of Seoul has to be Dongdaemun. If you prefer shopping at upscale to midscale areas (think wisma atria) then head on to the large shopping malls at that area. Each floor is catagorised into shops selling different stuff. e.g. fifth floor jewelery and accessories, fourth floor men's wear, etc. If you're looking for cheaper buys at the Dongdaemun area, head towards the older buildings. At the older buildings, you can bargain, but not too much, as the shopkeepers would rather chase you away then sell things to you at a low price.

If you're heading to Korea in winter, I strongly recomend Yongpyong ski resort. It's the largest of it's kind in Asia. The popular k-drama Winter Sonata was filmed there. There you can rent skiing equipment and try your hand out at the sport. There's snow boarding also. Those who are not ski crazy have two choices. The first is to take a cable car up several mountains to the peak of a particularly high one. If you're scared of the cold, don't go there. The time I went, it was minus 20 degrees celsius up there. Plus strong wind, so you feel it''s like minus 30. Don't stay out for too long to avoid frost bite. Go out, snap a few pics and head back to the building, where there's a cafe that was one of the filming areas of winter sonata. The second option is to take 3 minutes walk to nearby Peak Island (it's not a island, just the name of a building near the hotel). Peak Island is something like Wild Wild Wet (or whatever you call that water themepark thing in Downtown east) complete with saunas and jacuzzi facilities. There's a indoor and outdoor water park there... the outdoor one is closed during winter. The water is warm, so no worries about freezing. But you have to wear a swim cap, or they won't let you enter the water. You can buy a swim cap from their shop at a really cheap price too.

Ok, now i shall focus on Jeju Island. There's something you MUST do at Jeju. Eat the TANGARINES! or oranges if you like to call them that. The jeju "oranges" are smaller in size than normal oranges so by right, they should be called tangarines. Anyway... They are simply YUMMO. Their strawberries are superb as well. Not a single one is sour. Go to the sea side in Jeju, the seaview is simply breathtaking. You could hike up several smaller mountains in the area also, and take up the scenery from there. Oh, and visit the village of the original inhabitants of Jeju. The villagers are all descendants of Chinese, so most speak Chinese. The popular drama Da Chang Jin had filmed at their village. Also visit the Teddy Bear Museum. The teddy bears are so cute! They have bears from all over the world displayed there... and they house the tiniest teddy bears in the world also. '

Last but not least, themeparks =) I would suggest Everland themepark. It's a really magical themepark, that makes you feel like a young child, innocent and with no worries. Beware not to go to Everland on weekends though. It will be so packed that you'll have to queue at least 1 hour plus to get on a ride. When I visited, it was Friday, but I still had to queue for like half hour for the popular attractions. Another cool themepark to check out is Lotteworld, located in Seoul. That one is pretty fun too.

Some must eat Korean food: Ginseng chicken soup, Korean style BBQ pork and BBQ duck, Bi-Bim-Bap (mixed rice with other small dishes. Think of Korean style fried rice. the best Bi-Bim-Bap is the stone pot Bi-Bim-Bap), Zha-Jiang Mian (I can't think of a Eng translation for that, so work your hanyupinyin knowledge....), Seafood Hotpot, and of course KIMCHI ( which is available in almost every restaurant in Korea).

Woah, I wrote a lot.... I hope this helps anyone who wants to visit Korea next time. I simply just regurgitated what I have experienced and what Eric (the tour guide) told me. Ask me straight for more info. Haha.

I'm in the midst of learning Korean. I'm stuck with Spanish without the help of Marisol's mom anyway. I already know how to read and write Korean, just that I don't understand what i'm reading or writing. Something like you know how to read and write certain Chinese words, but you don't know what they mean. Ok, signing off now. Going to listen to Lee Seung Gi's songs. Lols... I heard him on TV in Korea, and found his songs pretty good.

Toodles =)

i feel so useless and devastated right now. It's like I just lost something very very precious to me and there's nothing I can do to get it back. I hate computers and technology.

The photos I took in Korea are all gone. I didn't even delete them. I was in the midst of transferring them from my phone into my computer when the connection between the phone and the PC suddenly broke off and all my files are just gone. I don't know how, i don't know why, but I feel like somebody just tore something really important away from me. Luckily my dad took more photos with his camera. My digital camera couldn't stand the cold, so it jammed, and hence I used my handphone. 40 over images all gone. I know that even if they are deleted, they are somewhere in my mini SD card, but I'm not some computer whiz, i don't know how to extract them out. I hate feeling so useless and incapable. I hate this.

If anyone of you who is reading this knows how to extract or restore deleted files in a mini SD card PLEASE. I'M SERIOUSLY BEGGING YOU TO TELL ME HOW, OR SHOW ME HOW OR WHATEVER. those pictures mean so much to me.

I've always have had a problem with letting things go. I just can't. When something means something to you, letting go is tormenting.

I told Gerald that I would post something about my trip on this post... But I just ain't got the mood now.

Back home. or is it really?

Hey Y'all, I'm back. Korea was PHENOMENAL. It was the best holiday I've ever had in my entire 16 years of existence. Korean guys are really tall, and our tour guide (his name is Eric) said that it's because they all drank Ginseng Milk and ate Kimchi growing up. HAHA. Seriously Koreans are super tall, the guys on average are about 1.85m. Eric's a really nice guy, not to mention good-looking. haha. (The tour guide Eric, not the Eric in school. Had to add this disclaimer, just in case.)

On the first day of the trip, he asked me how old I was, so I replied like I was going to be 16 the next day. And guess what, he threw me a surprise birthday party and bought this huge yummo strawberry cream cake for me!! Believe it or not, i never did once have a birthday party (my birthdays were usually a quiet family affair), and that was one of the best things anyone ever did for me. We spilt the cake among the whole tour group. He's a real joker and made the entire trip more fun than it could ever have been=) It's not that I have a crush on him but he's just soo nice, the kinda person you can become instant best friends with. And that's what happened. Haha. I've supposedly been awarded with the title of the most attentive person when he starts talking about Korean traditions and history.

In all korean tour groups, there's this guy who follows the group around and does little errands like helping us off the bus, serving us during meals and doing the headcounts and reservations for restaurants, etc. His official title is the Photographer for the tour group, and ya, he does go around with his camera taking shots of us. Another tall and good-looking korean guy. LOLs. John's his name and he's still in Uni. This is his part time job. And it is pretty heart-wrenching to see that young, handsome chap working his head off to provide a good service. Like, with his face, he could play a lead in some Korean drama and be the next Bae Yong Joon. He doesn't have a salary, he gets his pay from selling his photos. So I spent alot on him. Haha... over 40 US dollars buying his photos of me and my family.

That totals up to two tall, young and handsome Korean guys that I have met. The members of our tour group were really enthusiastic as well, and I had a blast. When it came time to leave Incheon airport for home, I couldn't bear to leave... like it was so so upsetting that all these people that you played, lived, and laughed with, you're not going to see them again. Especially Eric and John. At the airport, I gave them the biggest smile I could and waved them goodbye, but when I turned around and walked into check-in, I was tearing up really bad, fighting the urge to cry. It's like you just made two wonderful friends and now you're just packed up and flying off and you might never ever get to see them ever again. It didn't help that my dad was rattling away at me for being so not alert and slow at the airport. I hate it when dad does that. He didn't shout or anything, just talking with a irritated expression, but somehow that always makes me feel like I'm not good enough. Basically, leaving the airport was difficult, saddening and just dreadful. Maybe it's just PMS or some other teenage hormone surge that I'm being this emotional. In the end I did cry in the plane, I took the window seat so I could turn and look out the window and no one would see. I still miss Korea. I vow to learn the language and go back someday. Eric told me it only takes 3 months to learn Korean.

To all the kind and sweet people who had wished me a happy birthday in one way or another... THANK YOU SO MUCH<3
You make me feel loved and cared for in this world. I could never have asked for a better SIXTEENth Birthday. xoxo.

You walked in and out of my life too fast. Too fast. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time to the day we first met.

Going away.

Yeah, I'm off to Korea. In fact, I'll be gone by tonight, so no blogging for one week...

I finally got my guitar yesterday and tuned it, but since i'm going away, I've to wait for like a week later before I actually get to play it seriously.

Still can't find a job. Like all those that I approached had vacancies, but, they only want people 18 and above. There's even one shop which is so ridiculous. It's advert says that it's hiring retail assistants for a youth fashion shop, and when I called up, the lady says she only wants to hire people 30 years and above in age. That, does not make any sense or logic to me. At all.

I'll have to do more job hunting when I come back from Korea. If not i'll forever feel guilty about buying anything at all this holiday season. My mom is still persuading me not to get a job, saying that we are financially just. Again, we'll see. I have a job idea, like a be-your-own-boss kinda thing, but i'm not sure if it'll work. You'll never know if you don't try, though. Argh, whatever.

VALENTINE's Day =)

Okay, I'm so so so so going to watch this movie. I mean like it has a whole range of star-studded cast, and they all happen to be some of my all-time favourite actors and actresses!!!!! Plus, Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner are both in it. And it's really funny. The last part of the trailer left me laughing like mad. Ok, the joke's a little sick, but it works. Jessica Biel was like talking to Jamie Foxx, and she was lamenting that her only companion for Valentine's Day was her Blackberry. And she ended off "Thank God it vibrates." hahahaha... ok, if you don't get the joke, good for you too, you're really innocent. Sorry, i guess i'm just a little nuts. Haha.

Here's the full main cast of the show:

Anne Hathaway, Jessica Biel, Jessica Alba, Julia Roberts, Emma Roberts, Jennifer Garner, Queen Latifah, TAYLOR SWIFT, Shirley MacLaine, Taylor Lautner, Topher Grace, Jamie Foxx, Patrick Dempsey, Ashton Kutcher, Bradley Cooper, Eric Dane, George Lopez, and JOE JONAS.

It's ironic that Joe Jonas and Taylor Swift are like starring in the same movie after their not-so-clean breakup, and that Taylor Swift gets one of the supporting roles, while Joe Jonas gets to star as the voice of one of the character's dog. Yeah, pet dog. ... ... I can hear Marisol rolling her eyes going "Weird!"

Boyfriend or no boyfriend I'm so watching that movie.

P.S. I didn't post a super big trailer video for nothing...!! Please watch =) lols.

GRAH. I'm just so exasperated right now. Like argh argh argh. I still haven't got my guitar. =(
Apparently the delivery man is super late, and thus the Yamaha store doesn't have it's stock in yet, and hence, I can't buy the guitar. Damn. Damn. Damn.

It's been really long since i've last blogged, huh...? Yesterday, my family kinda went on a huge shopping spree, and gosh did we buy loads of stuff. I got a black/hotpink winter down jacket, and a pair of Columbia shoes, with hints of pink here and there. I don't know why, but i'm just obsessed with pink nowadays. Of course I'm not going to list every single thing we bought, I'm too lazy to do that, especially today, when it's raining. The sound of the rain and the cool breeze just makes me sleepy and lethargic.

I can't find a job. It's like the signs everywhere want people who are 18 years and above, and a handful being 16 years and above. It's super annoying, like totally, because I'M NOT EVEN SIXTEEN YET!!!! The wonders of being a December kid. My parents say that I don't have to work, but I want to, just for the experience (not to mention extra money). Given my busy holiday schedule, I have trouble finding a job that fits my timeline as well. Maybe I'll end up picking up the "toughest job in the world", according to Oprah Winfrey. That job happens to be a Housewife. Haha... training to be the Perfect Mom in the future. The problem? No pay. I'm thinking of maybe trying out for modelling at some local agencies, but i'm sure my parents will like object.

I just checked out both Kris Allen's and Adam Lambert's CDs. I vote Kris Allen. Seriously, Adam Lambert looks like a girl on his CD cover. I don't know why so many people like him, and his music, but he just puts me off. Besides, I've always been the country girl, so Kris Allen works more for me.

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I know i shouldn't be up so late, it's like 12.21 a.m. now, and it's not as if I have any stuff to study. Just watched the American Music Awards.... TAYLOR SWIFT SWIPED OFF THE MAJOR AWARDS again! She won like 5 out of 6 of the awards she was nominated for, if i remember correctly, including Artist of the Year. Michael Jackson was also nominated for Artist of the Year, and i was kinda sitting on the fence between Taylor and MJ. Above is a shocked picture of Taylor Swift, who just got the news. Unfortunately, she was in London, and unable to attend the AMAs. Well, they got her live on video feed, though. =) Adam Lambert was there performing, and he kissed one of his performers in front of the camera. The performer was male, so it was pretty shocking. Not that I have any prejudices against gays, i think they have the right to do what they want, I think i just don't like Adam Lambert. It's strange why they didn't ask Kris Allen to perform.

I'm meeting my friend Jane tmr. She's like my best bud in Primary school... Haha. I think Joping and Lihao still remember her. I promised to help her with her make-up for her prom, so tmr we're meeting to get some makeup essentials. It's pretty much been months since i've hanged out with her... the last time being the both of us watching the movie Wildchild together. I'm thankful that she still keeps in touch with me, and makes the effort to do so. They aren't many friends like her anymore.... Like many ppl just forget you once you're in a different class or something next year. I find that disappointing and upsetting. I hope I can keep in touch with as many ppl in 4H as possible... even after like 40 years later... Hahax

I'm going to get my guitar on Wednesday. I dropped by Yamaha on Sunday, but they said stock for the guitar I wanted was only coming in on Wednesday. Another trip it is, then... I'm pretty excited about learning the guitar and all... I've read up quite abit, and all I need is the thing to practise on. I hope to at least master the beginners level, as in chords and picking, etc by the end of december. When JC starts, I doubt i'll have this kinda freedom. Below? the guitar i'm gonna get =)

ok, my eyes are shutting on me now, so i'd better be doing what i should be doing... sleeping.

xoxo.

forever and always

i've been having the worst stomach cramps today. It's absolutely killing me and no painkiller seems to work. Argh. I was supposed to go guitar shopping today, but i guessed it just has to be postponed to tomorrow. Hopefully I don't wake up writhing in pain again tomorrow morning. It's just horrid. Since I was pretty much confined to the bed today, I spent the whole day thinking about the whole year. Like from the start of this year to Graduation Night, I felt like I just dug all the memories out and played them out like videotapes. The first day of school, homework, debate, crazy stuff, my major crush, getting over the major crush (or should i say ex major crush), writing songs, mugging like crazy, shopping like mad for prom, and finally prom itself. I focused alot on Prom though, it seemed like necessary to replay every single second of that night. It's kinda weird that I can actually recall every single thing that happened, how I felt in specific moments. The look on people's faces, and stuff. I hope I never ever forget those moments.

It's sad to think that you're not going to sit in class with your classmates, popping ricola or tic-tacs into your mouth, desperately trying to stay awake and concentrate on what the teacher is talking about. It's upsetting to think that the days where we would buy canteen food and hang out at the same table having small talk about girl stuff or trying to cram last minute facts into our heads for that test after recess anymore. I'll miss the times when i'd walk home with suxue, or walk to the train station with cheng hui, and just pour our hearts out to each other. I'll think about the days where me, kharmei, suxue and calista would have instant noodles at the void deck shop outside school which has since closed, and then we would move on to get our instant noodles at the 7-eleven and just eat under a void deck table nearby. Those were the days, huh? It's funny that throughout the entire year I was wishing so hard for today to come, the end of O levels, and now that today has finally arrived, I suddenly wanna go back to sitting in that stuffy ol' classroom we can proudly call our second home, eating the school food that we used to complain about, mugging hard for the exams we used to loathe. It's almost unbelievable that all that is gone, disappeared with time, and all that is left is just these memories that I will hold on to till the end of my life.

it's a cool night, nice weather to sleep in. Looks like it's going to rain tonight. I hope it does, sometimes it's soothing to wake up in the midst of the night and just listen to the rain hit the ground and the window panes.

Taylor Swift's newly released piano version of forever and always is just simply beautiful. I worked out the chords by ear and am hoping to figure out the right hand part soon enough.

it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong, it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone, I was there when you said forever and always.

BEST friends. FOREVER and ALWAYS.

PROM.

Pre message: If you are from 4H, please read the message at the bottom of this post. =) the BLUE one. oh, read the PURPLE one too... ok, just read the whole post.

ok, i know i had my reservations before, but PROM WAS FUN!

first and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS VERONICA for winning Prom Queen and Best dressed. I hope you're enjoying your ipod... haha... anyway, you looked beautiful last night, and you definitely, without doubt, deserved both titles. I'm so happy for you!! Congrats again=)

Su Xue is leaving for China today... She wrote me a letter yesterday, and I cried after reading it. I'm so so going to miss her, i can't believe i'm going to have to wait till next year before i can see her again. I'm meeting her later, to pass her something, it's actually a letter, and a friendship bracelet which I woke up early in the morning to make.

So, Prom was great, wonderful, fantastic, (insert all other good words you know here). Seriously, i had fun, even though i didn't have dinner... haha. We danced, laughed, snapped shots and what nots. Actually it was a pity, that we didn't have a class photo all dressed up. i'll be compiling a video, and only selected friends will get to view it... hahax. OH, and there's something important i need to ask of y'all...

ANYONE FROM 4H, IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE SEND ME YOUR PROM PICS... i want to compile a scrap book of 2009, so i will need more photos. if you have any pictures of me, with me, without me, whatever, just pictures of 4H people, then PLEASE send to me. THANK YOU!!!
i'll send you my pics in exchange if you like.

ok... i have lots of picture uploading to do...

TO 4H:
thank you, each and every single person in 4H. Thank you for just being in this class, and adding colours to it, making the memories of this year, this class, all the more unique and truly ours to keep. Thank you for being such wonderful classmates. Sorry, if i have managed to offend, or make anyone of you feel upset, or awkward, even for one second, throughout this whole year. Y'all have been the best classmates ever. All of you looked beautiful and smart last night. Time just passes so quickly, and before you know it, we may soon be going our separate ways. However, THIS is NOT the end! We may be going to separate schools, and living our lives the way we want to from now onwards, but we'll forever be 4H'2009. Thank you, 4H, for making 2009 one of the BEST years of my life.

desperado

Oh My GOD. Like I spent the whole of yesterday with Su Xue, Kharmei, Kai Yan, Kai Yi, Li Hao, and Cheng Hui, prom shopping. It had to be the most dissapointing shopping trip in the entire history of my life.

Okay, the twins got their dresses, suxue got a clutch and a couple of prom unrelated stuff, kharmei got a clutch, lihao got a shawl (i think), chenghui and i walked home empty handed. I did grab Maybelline BB cream at Northpoint, but that was it. Pathetic (for me). I can swear I went to every single shop in Far East Plaza, and I still couldn't find a freaking jacket for prom, which is the only thing that I'm lacking. Wisma Atria was another fruitless trip, so I went to Isetan, i found one, but it cost 80 bucks. Crazy. It's 100% cotton, and the material was like so flimsy.

Well, we'll see, I'm going out again today, hopefully it'll be more fruitful than yesterday. I miss shopping with mom, it's like super fun. Hahax. I don't think many teenagers will say that, but i like being with dad and mom, even just talking.

Ok, i'm going online shopping. ciao =)

it's SO over.

OK, so the Big event of the year is FINALLY OVER. Goodbye Os, never come back into my life again. HAHA, it feels good even saying it.

Went for a karaoke session with Su Xue and Calista yesterday, plus dinner and a short walkabout at Causeway Point. Actually i was intending to watch Michael Jackson's This is It alone yesterday, before the plans for karaoke took over. I'm still unsure if i'm ever going to watch it, especially after reading what Veron wrote about the film. Maybe i'll just wait for the DVD or something.

In the midst of packing up my study room, and all the other areas of the house which I have colonised with my books and papers. It's shocking, to see the huge pile of papers I cleared and stacked, for the rag-and-bone man. I realised I only did about like 6-7 of all the Physics exam papers Mr Lee gave. haha... I'm giving that stack of undone physics stuff to my cousin, it'll probably give him the shock of his life. LOLs. Still there is a lot of exavation work to do, and I hope that the study room will regain it's empty look, just as it was at the beginning of the year. It's a bit weird, though, after 2 years of non-stop studying, that suddenly now you don't have to care about Maths, English, Chinese, Or Sciences at all. I mean, it's not bad or boring, just weird that suddenly, it's all just gone. But there's far from a vacuum left behind. Time to make my life, err... ok, time to create a life for myself. Now Marisol cannot tease me for having no life. Ok, ignore my dry humour.

Some entertainment news:
Taylor Swift won FOUR Country Music Awards! Yay =) She has got to be my biggest idol ever, seriously. No one celebrity has ever inspired so much in me.

Demi Lovato's new video, Remember December is out. I don't really love the song, like to me, it's just an Okaayy song, not fabulous, just Okkaaayyy. anyways, here's the vid.

Demi Lovato - Remember December - Music Video (HD)

Demi Lovato MySpace Video

Tmr's gonna be a tiring day. I'm going shopping with like SIX people, to get the remaining prom stuff. The Grad Nite programme is SUPER BORING. with 3 hours of speeches, videos and prize presentations... and only 1 hour of socialising. Argh, far different from my ideal of a Graduation night. If they were going to add all the speech and prize giving thing, i think it would be much more appropriate if they were to make us wear the dark blue robes with the square hat, not a cocktail dress. Ahh, nevermind. Maybe I shouldn't compare or complain too much.

ok, back to the mess of worksheets and books I left half sorted on the floor.

okay... i really have nothing to talk about today. Just find that my blog posts are getting more and more boring, like there is nothing else to talk about but O levels and JCs and education. Argh. A far cry from the previous laments about boy-trouble and heavy metal bands with tongue cleaners.

I absolutely cannot take in one more page of bio. I keep on either drifting off to daydream land or seriously dozing off in between chapters. i'm guessing it's because this is like the hundredth time i'm going through my bio notes, and seriously, i'm getting really tired of staring at the same words again and again. Probably i'll just finish all the 5 yr series mcq I have, and call it quits.

Over the past few days, I've suddenly become like over-obsessed with prom. Haha, like thinking about what my friends will wear, what the place will look like, what hair I should get, should I go with or without makeup, how and what time i'm gonna get to school and what nots. Kinda hoping in the sidelines that maybe the Jonas Brothers will gatecrash our prom and walaah, we have our live band =) hahaha... totally, absolutely, definitely impossible.

I cannot wait anymore... just GIVE me the freaking last 2 O level papers, and let me get them OVER and DONE WITH!!!!

Fort Hood. Remembered.

Most of you should have heard about the bloodshed at Fort Hood. It's sad, that these brave men and women died, before they could discover the many more years ahead of them. I pray for them, their families, their friends. May they rest in peace. One of my friends, Derrick is going to serve the US Army soon. A patriotic act, yes, but sometimes as friends we can be a little selfish and wish he would reconsider. Sometimes all these stuff, like war, killings, violence, starvation... makes you doubt the presence of God. Sometimes it causes you to wonder, why can't He stop all these? Why can't He shine His light on the people out there who need it so much more than we do? I wonder what a peaceful world would be.

everyone's buzzing about prom now. Orchid Park Students have it way better than us, they have their prom at Holiday Inn Parkview. Mann!! I hope for our Prom they don't create a giant statue of the Oscar Figurine, like they did in their sketch. The first time I saw that, i thought it was one of the weird statue things you see on Easter Island.

Okay, gotta go now.

THREE more to being FREE

That's right... it's just going to be THREE more paper ones. The O levels just passed like a heavy storm cloud, that didn't even rain on us. Okay, bad analogy. Anyways, I'm just soo soo damn glad the worst is OVER. This O level period has been pretty mundane, just studying and all. I couldn't put my mind to studying Bio at all yesterday... I just kept on thinking and daydreaming of the thousands of things that I would finally be able to do once this is all over. Like Prom shopping with BFFs, playing the guitar, whipping up dinner for the family, painting, sketching a few dresses and singing crazily at the top of my voice to Taylor Swift, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez, Jonas Brothers, Michael Jackson, Carrie Underwood, Kellie Pickler, Boys like Girls, Backstreet Boys.... okay, the list is never ending.

I'm still searching for prom stuff. I don't want to like totally stand out from the crowd, just be unique, but at the same time not blend in too well that no one notices, like i've become part of the walls. I need bracelets, earrings, makeup, BB cream, bling-bling=) (haha), tonnes of bobby pins, a clutch, a jacket and to get rid of the stupid acne and panda eyes (that were part of the O level stress and sleep deprivation package). I simply cannot wait to go shopping for the stuff I need! Oh, and I need to exercise. Definitely. I haven't been doing that for like 2.5 months, which is BAD.

scooting off, to play some games and check out more guitar prices. A Yamaha I shall get.

CHEERS!

it's almost over...!!

this spoof video by Jonas Brothers and Demi Lovato and friends made me laugh throughout the O level period... I'd thought I'd share that... hahax. Bounce!

YAY. YAY. YAY.

one more Biology paper 2, and the rest's okay. Can't wait till after O levels. The first thing I'll do is settle my prom stuff, the second thing is to get a guitar and a how to play a acoustic guitar for dummies book. After much research, I've decided to get a Dreadnought Acoustic Guitar, a.k.a an acoustic country or acoustic folk. It'll suit the type of music I wanna generate. At first I was so bent on getting a Taylor Guitar. That brand is really good, like most of my friends have that brand, or the Gibson... but it's SO expensive. Like 700 -1000 dollars plus. So I've decided to get either a Yamaha guitar, or a Suzuki. They are like so much more affordable. The quality or overtone won't be the same, of course, but wait i'd better till i learn how to play it well first, before the splurge on a Acoustic Taylor, then a Electric Gibson. Muahaha!! Lols. =)

Geog Paper was quite okay, not like the N level paper. Duck head. Argh... Physics was so much easier than expected! I was overjoyed when I saw the paper. I think I have pretty good chances of a B3 or an A2. Yay! no more stuck in B4.

Nutshell? Today was good. Not fantastic (that would be the last day of Os) but good. =) Ok, i'm just going to grab dinner now... i'm FAMISHED.

Week Two

Week one of the O levels passed like a whoosh. I still can't believe I don't have to bother about maths anymore. For the rest of the year, at least.

I feel like my mind is constantly drifting away from revision. Hell, I spend more time thinking about what I'm going to do after I get my life back, rather than worrying about exams. In fact, I'm not even worried that it's the O levels. It's so damn weird. Flashback to the Prelim days, when i would even cry and panic when I couldn't finish my revision. And Now? My mentality is like nothing great is happening. Like I'm just sitting for a little class test. I'm not even taking the Os seriously, until the day before a certain paper, that is. My dad says its good that I feel that way, like i'm not stressed out or such, but I find me strange.

Social studies paper today was okay for me, I think that i'd be pretty safe to assume that I would get at least a B3 for my comb. humanities, since i'm intending to focus more on Geog than Physics for today and tomorrow (Sorry Mr Lee...). The Chemistry paper was a walker, like it wasn't too tough or too easy, just nice.

I've decided to stay in Singapore for JC education. A levels can't be that bad, right? I'm trying to please my mom here, but, I don't know if this is really the best arrangement. Still unsure of stuff. I just hope to get into an average JC. Nanyang's the best choice for now, it's quite near, given the circle line, and there's affiliation points. Anderson is a straight no-no, unless they demolish the school building and build a whole new campus by next year... which is impossible. The fans in their classrooms are hanging by wires, their canteen looks run-down, and their lecture theatre tables are in desperate need of screws.

11 more days countdown, 6 more papers. Hang in there everyone, it's almost over. We already can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

day one.

i feel like i'm standing on ground zero right now. Like it's the beginning of a 3 week journey for something better. Haha... I sound like Lord of the Rings.

I'm going to make this real quick... as y'all should know, O levels is TODAY. I'm feeling awkwardly calm and composed, quite a contrast to that panic strickened and paranoid person I saw in the mirror just a few days ago. I renamed the O level journey as the Operation Freedom Redemption. Lols, i know, it absolutely sounds dramatic, but I can't wait till the last day of the Os, where I would shop, watch movies, play music, dance around wildly or whatever. I can't wait till the day I get my life back.

There's gonna be the English Paper 1 and 2 today. This morning I was having a flashback, about the day of my PSLE English paper, where everyone was busy studying before the PSLE, but I was busy bragging that I didn't need to study for English. Yeah right, I aced that paper, but this one's different. It's like the O levels. I can't do comprehension, at all. So, I'll be happy enough to get a B3 for English. Hopefully this thing called moderation comes around the corner, and I'll think I'll be able to get an A2 then.

I'm absolutely terrified for the 2nd week of Operation Freedom Redemption. It's like all the you-know-what subjects clumped together. Not good. Trying hard not to think about that part right now.

Good luck, and do well everyone. We'll get there...

I don't know if y'all feel the same, but my brain is like running out of memory space really really fast. I feel like I can't cram all the stuff in anymore, so I'm just taking it easy right now. Don't wanna fall sick either.Thanks to the drip the other day, my hypoglycemia hasn't been acting up recently. Thank God.

Okays, it's like 12 a.m. and i'm studying Biology, just taking a break by blogging. I can't wait till O levels are over, and I can like taste freedom once more. This sorta life with books all day is suffocating. I don't even care much about what grades I get anymore... just want it to be over. My mind is already flirting with the thoughts of shopping (till i drop), drawing, painting, buying a guitar, holidaying. Like, i can't even concentrate well enough on the O levels, like I don't feel the urgency or importance of the thing itself. that's what I feared the Mocks would do to me, and wahlah... forecast correct. I don't know whether to say Dang, or Good. Like it's bad, coz i can't really concentrate 100%, and it's good, coz my exam jitters are holidaying in La-la Land. But either ways, my brain is exhausted. I need my break.

Hopefully tomorrow and Sunday would be more productive.

I have the sudden urge to cut my hair short. Like short bob, and then curl it. Haha, like okays, maybe I will after Os, but i'm really getting sick and tired of my hairstyle. There was this amazing looking D&G pumps i saw in a catalogue sent to me via email, but the price is shocking. US$400. Madness. I love branded shoes, but I don't love them to the extent that i'm going to give up my savings for them. My next quest is to find a similar pair for less... hahax. Talking about shoes, i've decided not to wear that 5.5 inch stilettoes to prom. LOLs. My feet are going to hurt Damn Bad in that one. The last time I wore it, I got leg pains for like the entire next day. So, I'm going for my 3 inch pair instead. Man, I really can't wait till after O levels!!!!!!!!

Oh... and you guys should check out the Nominations for American Music Awards 2009. Taylor Swift got SO many nominations! Like she was even nominated for Artist of the Year award! Another shocker, is that Michael Jackson got many nominations too, including Artist of the Year award. I'm stumped at who to vote for, like I love them both so much. Maybe i'll go alternate, like Taylor Swift for one day, and MJ for the next. lols.

thy shalt now taste the breath of freedom, that beholds and ravels the very gusto of Mankind.
Anonymous.

dead TIRED.

Okay... this is just wonderful... 2 days of intense revision actually drained out everything in me. I was dozing off while doing a A math paper 1, and I almost failed that paper because i was so tired, which led to tonnes of careless mistakes. My eyes can barely open right now, so I hope like blogging will wake me a little.

Today was at Mr Goh's session in the morning, but didn't manage to do much, because mostly i was just clarifying doubts and answering questions. By afternoon, after finishing the integration section of the Amaths TYS, I felt so exhausted already.

argh. i still need to go to school tmr to see Mr Yong. The damned person-in-charge didn't even key in a single thing into my CCA record, not even one of the two pages of changes I submitted in to them the previous time. Dang. So now Mr Yong is going to key in everything himself... I'm going down tmr to check it, make sure everything's in. Aw man.

I'm getting really really paranoid of the O levels. My mom is now insisting that I complete my A levels in Singapore. Eeeww. I'm going to strike a pact with my parents soon. If I don't get into my desired first choice JC, I will leave this country for overseas education no matter what.

Nostalgia

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT IS THE OFFICIAL LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR SEC 4s.
The Chung Cheng Bear is sitting beside me right now. Just filled with myriad of emotions, bittersweet, sad, just can't bear to confront the fact that today is the first step in the separation of 4H. During the mini Graduation session today, Amos burst into tears. Anna couldn't bear to look at him, afraid that she would cry as well. Not long after, Cheng Hui cried. Aww, I really felt like crying too, but I held the tears back in my eyes. 4H'09 is the best class that I've ever been in. Even the sometimes annoying people in class will be worth missing. I wrote a song about it, not exactly, but more about like how you realise just how much something means to you when you notice that it's slowly slipping away from you. How you learn to cherish something with all your heart when you find that you're losing it. Ironically, I named the song "This Is It". Sounds familiar? I betcha it does. My eyes were tearing as I wrote it.

Btw, I saw someone imitating Michael Jackson's dance moves in Starbucks today. It was a young Malay guy. But he didn't do a good job, he looked as if he was having muscle spasms. I guess Michael Jackson really can't be easily imitated. The original is the best.

I named my Chung Cheng Bear "You Ji Tang" or "Oily Chicken Soup", after the pots of stuff that Mrs Choo always cooks for us. haha... Calista laughed hard at that one. Well, I find that's it quite a cute name. Anyway, I can change it anytime I want in the future. Haha... I feel really motivated to study hard now, to make the school proud. Something like that. haha...

Oh, I finally figured out what Ms Kaur wrote on her note to me. She wrote "Bon Chance ma Chérie"... I know Bon means Good, I know Ma means My, and I kinda guessed Chance meant Luck, which is correct. She was saying "Good Luck my darling". Ms Kaur is one of the sweetest teachers ever. Come to think of it, all our teachers are wonderful.

Lastly, thank you so much, Emily (3H). I'm really grateful to know that you have not forgotten our debating days, and that it still means so much to you, fighting as a team. You thanked us for the times where we guided you along, but I just want to say that I have learnt a lot from you as well. I could have never asked for a better teammate, or a better team combination. Thanks for being there as well. Most of all, Thank you for being who you are, for being our teammate, our friend, someone we know we always can depend on. I will never forget everything you have given us. Forever friends =)

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It seems like all that I know are so far away right now. I'm starting to feel a little bit lost, confused, like a child lost in the crowd. The footprints on the sand washed away by the waves, no marked path, no guiding hand. Can I ever find or fight for the life I want to lead? What lies for me after this? Will I be able to breathe without you around me? I don't know. But I promise you I'm going to try my very best to find who I am supposed to be. May my dreams lead me to where I wanna go, without losing the people that mean so dear, that mean the world, everything to me. Don't wanna be torn.( hahs, i should very well make this into another song.)

I can't believe that tomorrow is going to be the last day of school. It's like, suddenly, this wave of nostalgia just sweeps over... and you start thinking about the little times that made this year and last year comparatively good. I'm not sure what my life would become without my BFFs with me everyday. Haha. Rumours are going around that the school is going to give us the CCHY bear as a momento. I hope they do! But whatever the school gives, i'm fine with it.

My Aunt's husband, Mark, just sent like a huge parcel full of T-shirts that said 'Idaho' (that's where he lives) and a really thick... I mean really thick... photo album filled with pictures of my aunt and him during her trip to Idaho in summer.I thought that was really sweet of him to compile that for her, even including little decorated notes about the places they visited. It must have took him long, since he's always so busy at work. It came as a surprise, and I got 3 t-shirts... yay =)

Trish rang up yesterday. She told me that they are going to light up the Christmas tree at Rockefeller Center on my birthday!! OMG. that's really cool, it's so sad i'm not there to see it, i'll be in Korea before heading to New York. FYI, Rockefeller Center is a place in New York City, where they have this giant Christmas tree. They light it up every year, and it's a staple in New York's Christmas celebrations. There's also this ice-skating arena there, but seriously, i can't ice-skate. I can barely roller blade, so ya, make the link. I miss New York. From fashion street, to even wall street. Central Park, and the huge cheap yummy big burgers they sell at this place called The Eatery, a restaurant right beside the Museum of Modern Art. Oh, and you can't miss out shopping at American Girl Place. Haha, i know, what a name. It's actually a shopping store at Fifth Ave. If you go to New York, shop there. It's where fashion is most concentrated in NYC, other than fashion street, that is. Okay, i'd better shut up before I start sounding like some kinda tourist guide book.

Anyway, i got a picture of Rockefeller Center off Google. I'd better whip up some lunch, before mugging...

when I look at you

I really like this song by Miley Cyrus. Somehow it makes me feel like part of it. Maybe I am. The songs i'm producing have been really really emotional lately. Much alike this song. Probably its the stress, but it did make me realise something. Now I have a task to complete after the O levels. It may not be the right choice, or the wisest one, but life's too short to take any more chances. I'll keep it to myself for now. I want to a little bit more certain about what i'm doing before confiding into anyone.

Sigh... my aunt is flying off to Idaho to see her husband again. Uncle Mark's dog Snowshoe will definitely be overjoyed. I wish I could go to USA with her. Then I wouldn't have to take the freaking O levels.

i spent the day studying at the yishun library after school. I managed to finish the whole chapter of Development on Geog. I'm dead beat. My health's not holding up too well, so i'm going to the hospital on Wednesday to get a few hours of drip. Ya'noe, that packet thing where they poke a tube and needle into you and let it "drip". Because of that i'm gonna have to miss Physics review on Wednesday. Can't help it. Gotta think of the bigger picture. Today Mr Lee told me specifically not to give up hope on Physics. I don't want to, but I have to, in order to protect my L1R5. Of course, I don't feel good letting him down like that, but if given more time, I would put effort in Physics. Sad, I don't have that liberty right now.

I don't know why, it always feels better when you're here.

okay, this was on Cal's blog, and i'm really bored out from studying...

What are you doing now?
~Searching for geography examples to use in essays, and listening to Keith Urban's CD Defying Gravity =)

What do you want to do next?
-Complete revision for human geog.

Are you attached? To whom?
-Yupps, to my revision notes, and my pillow (which is on my lap right now) and to Nick Jonas. HAHA. Okay, that was a lame joke. Forgive me, my brain is dying.

What is the most awkward moment or event that happened in your life?
-When I was at a place where everyone knew everyone, but i ain't know anyone but my parents. i was so lost then.

Who is the person that you hate most?
-A certain someone(s) who betrayed my trust and faith in them and turned their backs on me 2 years ago.

What is your interest currently?
-Listening to music and more music, writing music, studying at starbucks and SHOPPING. Ok, i think I exceeded the quota.

Do you want to persue in this area of interest as a career?
-Yup, all of them, except for the studying at starbucks part. I would rather like to be paid to do nothing in Starbucks, and drink coffee...!!

Assuming that today is your birthday, what birthday wish would you like to come true?
-I want to land my dream job and live my dream life.

And do you think that your wish will come true?
- Maybe, I really hope so!

Any job of interest for the future?
~Fashion Marketing and Designing, and/or song-writing, to be in a band if possible =) Or acting. haha, drama is FUN.

Do you love your current life/lifestyle?
-Not exactly, maybe I will, after the O levels. Then I have all the time to rock out and party all I want.

Who do you want to pass this quiz to?
-Anyone who wants to do it. (esp my friends =D)

I shouldn't have eaten fried rice for dinner last night. Darnit, I regret that. Now my sore throat has gotten worse. I feel like I have sandpaper for a pharynx.

Calvin kept telling me today that I could be the black horse, and my Physics could improve to an A. He even explained to me alot of the stuff from the mock paper, which i initially didn't understand. But I seriously don't have that much faith in my Physics. Still, i'm gonna try. Mr Lee's "hopeless, shake head and sigh" expression isn't helping. At all. Prayin hard.

Mr Goh's at BK tomorrow. Seems like the BK sessions have been changed to Sundays. But he was there today too. Hardworking teachers. Sometime it absolutely bugs you when you disappoint them and their efforts.

Selena Gomez's CD is good! =)

I've got a mild sore throat, and I hope it goes away by tomorrow. During A maths today, I sneezed a little and a huge torrent of mucus flooded my nasal cavity... God. I didn't have any tissue with me, so I just held on, and breathed through my mouth for an hour plus, before the paper finally ended. Then, just I stood up to go the ladies, the whole gooey mess flooded my throat. Yucks.

My mom's telling my dad not to send me to Canada after JC1, so I can complete my A levels. My godd. That is like torment all over again. She making it sound like that the world has changed so much that sending me to Canada would be like sending a princess to afghanistan. Hello, i'm not that pampered okay.

While going home today, this old man suddenly fell in front of Calista at the bus stop. Luckily he didn't crash into her or something. I have a feeling that he did that on purpose. Like, the tiles at that area were pretty well laid, with nothing jutting out. No litter over there too, and he was wearing pretty stable shoes, plus had the support of an umbrella. Weird guy. The way he fell was abit unnatural like he got down on his knees first before collapsing. I didn't help him out. Not a weird person like him. He wasn't hurt anyway. Crazy.

Oh man. Bio tmr. I haven't studied that and I swear I've forgotten most of it by now. I wanna play with the F1 car my dad just bought me. It's really cool. Lewis Hamilton's Mclaren Mercedes one was sold out, so daddy got Kimi Raikkonen's Ferrari instead. =)

OMG I knew it. The actor who plays Will Traveler in the tv show Traveler that shows 12 midnight on tuesday, after CSI, is the same guy who played Pyro in X-men. I knew it I knew it!!

Headache, Miley and F1.

I stayed home today again. Wasn't feeling too good in the morning, like my head was going to explode. Ate some panadol and studied a few chapters of Physics. I'm going to do a bit of Geog later, if my head permits.



Miley Cyrus's new video is out. Party in The USA... Somehow I feel like the video doesn't match with the lyrics of the song. Like no link at all. But I love her boots. Cowboy boots are the coolest fashion statement EVER. Too bad the leather is hard to maintain in the humid Singaporean weather. I get a feeling like Miley's growing up too fast. Hmm.

I can't believe its like 4 weeks to O levels now. I don't know what to feel. Scared? Stressed? Or happy that all this is about to come to an end? Whatever. I can't be bothered so much anyway. I want to keep my sanity. Just study and sit for the freaking exam. I'm trying to psycho myself to think that the Os aren't really that big a thing. My dad's thinking of sending me to Canada, after JC 1. That means no A levels. I don't know, everything's a whirl.

F1 yesterday was so damn freakin cool....!!! Lewis Hamilton WON =) My heart like stopped when Alonso took the lead, but luckily Alonso hadn't refilled yet, giving Hamilton a chance to come back in to play. Nicole Scherzinger was the only girlfriend there in this race. They didn't feature any other girlfriend. Probably Nicole's presence and support helped Lewis win. It's really sad that Mark Webber's brake failed him. and Jenson button was way cool! like he upped 4 positions, if I can remember correctly, with a total of 86 points gained. If I had the chance, I would buy an F1 car. Or have a F1 driver as a boyfriend. HAHA. just kidding... lols. I doubt I'll ever get THAT chance.

wow. I just spent like my whole morning printing out A maths and Emaths practice papers. Gosh, I wonder if I have the time to finish all of them...

I've been struggling lately with studies. Like there's so much more to finish but so little time. Hopefully everything sorts out right before the O levels. I'm getting paranoid. Without doubt my brain is exhausted. I need so much sleep nowadays, and its getting harder and harder to concentrate. Maybe I should relax a whole lot for just one day, and push on again the next. But then again, there's not much time left. The last thing I want to do now is not put in my best effort, get grades that i do not want and disappoint the people who have pinned more than just hope on me.

I heard from Calista the other day that even Yishun JC's admission L1R5 has upped to 15 points. Great. I'm just going to aim for Nanyang JC and if I don't make the cut, Yishun shall have to do it. Or if worst come to worst, I'll directly audition for a place in Laselle art school.

Oh man. Everything seems to suck right now.

Send it On

I'm completely in love with this song. It's sounds good, and it's for a good cause. =)

Today was productive, really really productive. I was feeling like a washing machine on spin mode this morning during the English Paper, but somehow the giddiness and stomach pains eased off during Chemistry. I went to Northpoint after school with Khar Mei today, and helped her choose her Prom Dress. Like she scored a dress for S$37!! anyways, I saw this jacket that I really really really liked, but it cost like $53.90. Er, a little pricey. I still got my eye on it, but I'll look around for any cheaper look-alikes. We only spent like 50 minutes shopping. Luckily review sessions were cancelled today =)

Then afterwards we went to study at Starbucks. Shared a Potato Curry Puff for lunch. Man the curry puff was huge. I grabbed a Cappuccino and studied Physics. I completed like 4 chapters in an hour and 15 mins while I was there. =) I love Electromagnetism. That's the only part of physics in which I can actually score. The ONLY. I'm going to try and complete all my Physics revision today.

Well, the coffee really did its job. I'm wide awake now.

My parents have to be the most unique parents EVER. My dad asked me yesterday if I wanted a PSP or X-box or some of those game thingy. He said I could play in between study sessions. Me? I was stunned. Okay, i don't fancy those kind of stuffies, and the only games that I know how to play is Halo 1, 2, 3 and Guitar Hero. I'm a total dummy at what other games they have in the market, and not interested. I know. A normal teen would have said yes to my dad's question. Anyway, I told him I didn't need those kinda stuff. A guitar would suffice. But I know I would be so obsessed with the guitar that I would totally neglect studying, so lets just wait till after Os. =(

OKays. I'd guess i'll get going now. i need a shower.

sick. well it ain't that bad...

so i am at home right now, while my friends are in school, probably finishing lunch.

here we go again. Sick. The good part is that I got to miss those mock exams today. The down side is that I can't study much. I only managed to read up one chapter of Biology today. My head's still spinning like a top. I'm gonna drag myself to school tmr... But I wonder if I can manage the Chem Paper. Nevermind, we'll see tomorrow. It's a bit disorientating even to type, but i'm gonna type anyways.

Selena Gomez's new album is coming out in 5 days time. Can't wait!! Like it would take off some stress from my shoulders. She's a great person, so let's wish her the best for her album. Marisol just IMed me to post her music video up on my blog. I wonder what Mari is up doing so late. It's like 2.30 am in New York. It's not as if they have any homework. =( unlike us. Anyway, here's the video... Falling down.



I forgot to mention that it was Nick Jonas's Birthday last thursday... 17th of Sept. Guess it doesn't really matter saying it now, like its one week gone. I did wish him Happy Birthday on the Jonas Myspace, together with like i'm guessing a few hundred thousand teens out there.

Oh... I almost forgot. Something happened yesterday. Like Su Xue and I were walking home as usual, like walking along the pavement of a main road, Su Xue pushing her bicycle, like i said, as usual. Then there was a runner, not unusual, like people always run around there. So, we moved aside. Strangely, like this guy went the other way, like we shifted to our right, and he ran to the right also, and overtook us. I swear Su Xue's bike was like 15 cm away from him and if we had moved a little faster, we would've crashed into him. Okay, doesn't sound really interesting right? Here's the funny part. My line of thought throughout the whole thing was like. 1. Oh, a runner, shift to the right. 2. Hmmm, weird, he could've just run straight instead of almost crashing into us. 3. Looks like a middle-aged man. 4. Wait, I think I know him. 5. Looks really familiar.... 5. OMG, its Tan Qi Guang. HAHAHA. By the time my mind came to this conclusion, he was already a tiny figure in the distance. I thought he was a middle aged man. I looked at Su Xue and she looked at me. Then we laughed a little. She thought he was someone older too. Oops. =P

I can't believe that my family is actually encouraging me to skip the mocks. HAHA. okay, i'll now try and see if my head's ready for a little more revision.

Is the school mocking us?

I was actually thinking of studying non-stop once I reached home, but it has just been too long since I've last been online. And I so am addicted to the internet. But anyways, I'm going to make this quick and typing as fast as I can.

Today's mocks were okay... like I was half sleeping when I did English, so I made a couple of careless blunders in that paper. S.S was like er... I got zero marks for part a and c of SBQ. First time. Wasn't exactly devastating, but it did ouch abit. I seriously still don't get the point of mocks. They are just so tiring. Other schools are out there "resting and eating tonics" as in Study Leave, and we are here running on treadmills (mock exams). Who will have the most energy to run the last race? If I really regarded the mocks seriously, definitely not me.

I bumped into Gerald on the way home today. Kinda surprised to see him taking the bus service that takes me home. Turns out that he's on his way to tuition. Joping told me about that tuition teacher before, said he was quite good in Maths. Went home and indulged into a bag of Nachos, while chomping Physics facts. But my brain must be falling asleep. I can't seem to remember anything now. hahax =)

Wow. Looks like my tag board has become a battle of words for the two Samuels. And yes, I do agree with Sam P. You two are far far far from twins. Guys don't have a suit? God... I didn't know that... lols. Paisehs. I must be too Ang Moh... coz Ang Moh guys do have suits. In fact I bought 2 for Nick, last June. He wore one for his prom =D But sorry, I'm officially almost bankrupt after spending more than 400-500 dollars this month, so no gift suits for you guys.

There's Physics, Emaths and Chem tomorrow. A sickening combination. I think i'll just flunk. Really can't be bothered anymore with mocks.... if not i'll go crazy. Just study at my own pace, my own schedule and it'll be okay.

Mentallist, CSI and Traveler tonight. YAYs. I find that I absorb more physics while watching tv.

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sigh sigh sigh. It's finally here. The last lap. It's the final one month and 7 days, according to the class blog. Run, climb, fly, whatever, just go as far as you can people. We all have the potential to do it. The determining factor now is the effort and the effectiveness of the effort we put in. Keep those power words like FAITH, HOPE, BELIEF at your fingertips. They will help you to keep on going, even if you feel out of breath. I know we all can make it, so HANG ON and DON'T GIVE UP!!!

i've been thinking, and yeah, maybe I've been too pessimistic about the mocks. But anyways, in case at any point i get too stressed until my nerves are breaking, then yeah, i'll probably just take sick leave and study at home instead. I'm worried about my A maths, Comb. Humanities, English and Chemistry the most. Guess I just have to work harder now. My Geog has been slipping throughout the year for some unknown reason, and only now am I finally starting to get back to where I was last year. Ah, enough about studies. My brain is dead beat. I've decided to rest for today, so I'm all geared up and alert enough to work on A maths tomorrow. Puyu just smsed me, she's working extra hard too. When it comes to O levels, there are no exceptions.

Did anyone hear about the Kanye West Taylor Swift incident at the VMAs? Like yeah... that was so rude. At least Kanye West was. When Taylor was about to make her acceptance speech after receiving an award, Kanye West just sprang up onto stage, snatched the microphone and declared that he himself believed strongly that Beyoncé should be the winner. Beyoncé looked in shocked like "omg, what has this to do with ME" kinda thing. lols. The crowd booed Kanye West off stage. In the end, when Beyoncé did get another award, she asked Taylor to come on stage to finish her speech. That was really nice of her. But I really think that Kanye West is getting more full of himself and such. His behaviour lately proves it.

Today in school was our last CLVES lesson.... Sad. CLVES is seriously the best subject (the funniest, rather) in the curriculum. Ms Kaur was really kind to give us our last CLVES lesson, instead of replacing it with English. =) We watched this sexually education video thing, but seriously the actors were really er... fake? I don't know, I just didn't feel convinced by their acting. Ms Kaur got bombarded with lots of marriage questions today. lols. Somehow that felt like the last time before the O levels that we would get to laugh out loud and hard together as a class. It's kinda bittersweet.

My Aunt's listening to "Heal the World" now, by MJ. My dad is hoping to find time to upload his MJ cds onto his cellphone's music player. and me? I still don't feel like he has left us.

Su xue got sick again today. I am abit worried for her... she falls sick too often. Mr Goh said that Cal and I should donate blood to Su Xue. Apparently he picked the wrong people. We both have low blood pressure... So he asked Xue Ying instead. Xue Ying's reply was that she didn't have a clue what her blood type was. Lols. Anyway, Su Xue, take care and get well soon!

lovelovelove.

nuts.

Today really turned for the worse when I saw the mock papers timetable. I seriously can go crazy with that. I got really really really angry and full of abhorrence once I flipped through the paper. Never knew that a few sheets of white could invoke so much emotion. Basically I was going like WTF. What is the school thinking? Hell, I don't even get to come home for lunch for one single weekday for an entire MONTH. and there are so many papers in one day, with a few subjects. This mock thing is basically going to exhaust me, and seriously I'd bet I would be too damn tired to even reach my highest potential for my O levels. My mom totally agrees with me. How I wish this were America. I could gather a huge group and protest, without punishment. But this is Singapore. Argh... it so ruined my day.

I wanted to study geog today actually, but i ended up watching Michael Jackson's concert on TV instead. I did manage to cover like 1/3 of the Forest chapter during the commercial breaks. It still doesn't feel like Michael Jackson has died. Rather, its the opposite. His sudden departure seemed to have brought his music and his legend back to life again. I suppose this is how you live forever... ... in the hearts of people.

We had Physics remedial today. I only paid attention while Mr Lee was going through the 1st question. I feel a little bit bad for doing that, as Mr Lee is one of the most dedicated teachers that we have. But I just couldn't bring myself to pay attention. Anyway my Physics has let me down once again. B4. and teacher said that we should be getting As. I am already feeling exhausted. With mocks, I'll feel worse.
I know myself well enough that I cannot take too much of a certain kind of pressure. I'll fall sick again and again, and i'll get all emotional. It's no surprise that i'm already ill now, with an infection of my throat, sinus and ear. I can't hear properly or breathe on my right side. Trying my very best to keep opstimistic for now. It helped to know that I did well for certain subjects, so, hopefully let's keep it that way.

Siento que no puedo estar con ustedes, a tu lado, en este momento cuando me necesites más. Me duele verte tan perdido, tan cansado. Pero quiero que sepas que siempre estamos allí para usted. No importa lo que pase. Incluso si eso significa que usted tiene que tomar ciertas decisiones que no van con la mayoría, haga lo que usted cree que es correcto para usted. Recuerde que su destino está en tus manos. Y si usted se cae, voy a tratar de encontrarme con usted, incluso si estoy a mitad de camino en todo el mundo. Se va a mejorar, después de esto. No te rindas, no en sí mismo.

I received this note from someone. Again, I required my dictionary a lot (and I mean like almost every other word... Oh man my Spanish!!!). Callebero, la próxima vez que escriba en Inglés!!! But, muchas gracias de todos modos =)

Marisol and Nick called today. Thanks for the encouragement and prep talk. Initiation is almost over, it's been almost a week or more since school started in New York. I can't wait to meet the freshmen... haha.

I know I said that i'd work hard, and I will, but there's a limit to somethings. We'll just have to take it a step at a time. I hope that everyone around me is taking the pressure and handling it better than i am. CMH.

supposedly the last day of freedom.

Today is the official last day of the school break. After this, every single day will be spent mugging like crazy. It's the last day of sanity, the last day of freedom, as I see it.

I spent the whole day with my mom yesterday, on a shopping spree along Orchard road. I got my Prom Dress... =) It's the kind that only stick thin people like me can wear... lols.=) I kinda saw that dress, and it looked like one of the dresses that Gisélle Bundchen (that super tall supermodel) wore at an event... I remember I saw that picture of her on French Vogue magazine in a similar dress... I tried like a galore of other dresses, but out of coincidence or what, that Gisélle dress was the only one that fit me. Haha. It can be depressing to be thin, and to eat tonnes of food and never gain weight. And I made a new discovery: figure hugging dresses make me look like a "bamboo with a figure" quote mom. The dress I bought was quite cheap, only about a hundred dollars plus, less that $170. Trust me, I spend much more on clothes usually. I also bought like a pink pullover for casual occasions. Yesterday was fun =D I'm still looking for a shoe that looks like the Prada one I like. I would never spend on a real Prada shoe. It'll pinch my savings too much.

Physics is the main monster in my schedule today. From tomorrow onwards, it's gonna be a battle of will and wits. Okay, that sounded too dramatic. I'm studying English today also. My plan is to do lots and lots of comprehension practices till I get things right. Oh, speaking about English, if you'd read the papers today about the bad command of English in Singapore, you'd probably have had a good hard laugh as I have. There are still times when I can't understand Singlish at all. Well, I won't elaborate so much, if not y'all will have to read a crazily long and exhausting post.

I'm still not over that silly 18th century dream I had. Still brooding and laughing over it. Taylor Swift's new single "American Girl" is so not her best. Thought I would like it over a while, but I still find it barely okay. Oopps, mugging time.

xoxo
carmen

Te amo, y yo no. No estoy realmente seguro de si tengo miedo de amar, o si realmente no tienen sentimientos románticos para usted. Pero después de todas las cosas que han hecho por mí, yo realmente no estoy seguro si estoy listo para dar este paso. Su nombre resuena en mi mente una y otra vez. A veces, me pregunto si esta es la realidad o sólo pura imaginación. Sometimes I really don't know what to do with you.

I hope my Spanish grammar is still correct. Damn, my Spanish has really degraded a lot. In truth, I need a whole lot of help from a Spanish-English dictionary to write what I wrote above. I can't even pronounce properly some Spanish words now. Seems like after O Levels, I need Marisol's mom to re-teach Spanish to me again, so I can at least walk around in Mexico without the language barrier. Speaking of which, I do miss authentic Mexican food...

It's Friday, the last weekday of my one week school holiday. To be frank, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. Time just whooshed past like that without us realizing. It can get exasperating at times. I haven't finished most of the things I hoped to finish, so it feels like the time that just flew past was all a waste. I wish the time machine was something real, not just sci-fi. I'm not going to do so much revision today, but I'm just going to enjoy the last day of my holiday. Really enjoy.

After I reached home from Chemistry today, I fell asleep on my living room sofa. I think I must have been exposed to too many dreams today, since sharing our dreams was the first thing me, Cal, and Su Xue did when we first reached school (it's becoming some kind of routine topic to talk about among the 3 of us). So I had this really weird dream like I was in some kind of 18th century love story, the Romeo and Juliet kind. It was probably one of the most dramatic, most out of this world, most undescribable dreams i've ever had. It felt like I was watching a movie with myself as the lead actress. Haha. I woke up when the story had a happy ending (thank God nobody died unlike in R&J), just in time for lunch.

I'm listening to Rascal Flatts now =) But I wish that country music was open to more races. Like so far, all the country singers are American whites, with the exception of Keith Urban, which is a Australian white. To me, music is universal, and it appeals to everyone, even if the audience doesn't understand the language you are singing. So it should be more open and receiving, to all colours, to all faiths. So when watching the CBS George Strait special, and I saw Jamie Foxx, a African-American, and he was performing "You Look So Good Tonight" (one of my favs), and he spoke exactly about how music was for all races, it was something worth sharing. Hats and thumbs up to Jamie Foxx. He got a standing ovation.



and now, Taylor Swift singing another one of my favourite George Strait songs, Run.

4 CMA NOMINATIONS FOR TAYLOR SWIFT!!!

Okay, I know i'm so crazy... but AHHHHHH!!! Taylor Swift just got 4 CMA nominations =) In case for those who don't know, CMA means Country Music Awards... Trish, Mari and Kristen are sleeping over at Krist's and be basically watched the CMA nominations together at the same time, while on webcam. It's like 11. 30 pm there in New York... 12 hours difference. Every time Taylor Swift's name came up we would go AAAAHHHHHH!!! hahax. My grandmom probably thought i was crazy, but i'm soo estatic right now....! This is so crazy... I got up to watch this, and I still have my pyajama pants on. =X

She got nominated for Best Entertainer Award, Album of the year award, Female Vocalist of the year and music video of the year. A message to Taylor Swift fans out there... GO TO CMA.COM NOW AND VOTE, VOTE, VOTE SO SHE WINS ALL HER NOMINATIONS.

okay... this is one of the best starts to the morning EVER.

Today is my designated maths day, so i'll be doing my A and E maths for the entire day. it's going to take a lot a lot and a whole lot of concentration, but i have to do it. The next best thing to ME winning a CMA award is to get a good pretty looking O level certificate so mugging is definitely not out of the equation. My friend sent me this email the other day about what you can do with an O level certificate. Among the list was like you can chuck it in a corner, go get a job, but the 3 more relevant points on the list were 1) Go to a JC/Poly of yr choice 2)Go get a scholarship n leave this island
3)No scholarship but leave this island anyways to study abroad. I doubt i'd be studying abroad for college =( Vancouver and NYC have changed so rapidly the past few years that it isn't that safe as it was in the past. Besides, my parents are job devotees, and plus they won't whisk me off to some other country alone, even if in the company of family friends. I don't blame them. You need severe survival instincts in those 2 cities. My Aunt's moving to USA soon, after getting married in December, but she's going to Idaho. Like it's a desert (somewhat like Phoenix, Arizona) and there isn't really any fantastic Universities or colleges over there, but some really cool hiking trails and national parks. And the tax in USA is nuts. like almost half your salary or maybe more is eaten up by govt taxes. Is the grass really greener on the other side? Maybe i'll just have to settle for NYJC.

But what's important now is getting that dang Cert first. so off to revision. =(( at least i still started my morning right =))

lovelovelove,
C

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I've to go for lunch soon, so i'll make this real short and quick.

I have no idea why, but i'm hooked on Hannah Montana. I don't know, it just makes me smile, laugh, feel all better. It's probably because I grew up with Hannah Montana, she's like every little girl's dream. The Best of Both Worlds. It's great to get in touch with your past sometimes. =)

I just watched like Hannah Montana season 3 ep 18 "he could be the one". haha... guys problems. Got me laughing like crazy. It's really funny, y'all should watch if you have the time. I really don't feel like studying at all today. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn't. Grah, i don't know. just feel like i've been wasting my holiday away just trying hard to finish all the homework.

Okay, i really have to go now... i'd be late for lunch if i don't hurry.

seeing miley and jake just makes me think of you.

back to as it was

I think all that hype about the class tee has died down now, and my blog is back to normal... that is, my good ol' blog =) The third design is the winner, btw.

I was roving around the internet for more music yesterday, and got a really great surprise. I know a really great song named "Two is better than one" and I was only introduced to it when a friend sang a cover of it not too long ago. I didn't know who did the original, and somehow, never got around to finding that out. But when I checked yesterday... It was a song by the band Boys Like Girls, feat Taylor Swift!! I was like oh my God. I'm addicted to the song right now. It used to mean quite something to me, and now it means more. I also found a Taylor Swift cover of County music icon George Strait's song "Run". To all those who know George Strait, you'd definitely know that he sang quite a number of country hit songs, around 60 over No. 1 hits, if i'm not wrong. "Run" is one of my favs of his. The other would be "Carried Away".

Today, music dominated my online time again. I checked out Miley Cyrus's new album, The Time of Our Lives. Didn't leave an extremely good impression... it was like just okaay. But the thing with her songs is that you'll have to listen to it a lot alot of times before you start finding it nice... so maybe it'll be awhile before i splurge on her album. I'm almost broke because i'm buying too much music CDs lately. Need to control myself!

The Social Studies Diplomacy and Deterrence Template is driving me nuts. I'm completely stumped, like I only can fill up the description columns. The other columns like manage conflict, ensure security and ensure survival all have like the same answers. The chemistry homework is another bummer. I didn't know how I managed to lost the whole stack of chemistry homework, but I did... Thank God, Su Xue lives near, and I managed to photocopy it from her. I haven't gone about doing the Chemistry homework yet, but I hope I do so fast, so I can properly enjoy at least one or two days of my holiday off.

Well, I'd better get going and do some homework before Criminal Minds show at 11p.m. Tuesday is the best one, you have Mentalist and CSI:Miami. One part of me feels like I'm letting my holiday slip by piling it up with revision. Another part of me says it's necessary, so I haven't got a schedule for this week yet. We'll see. I guess i'll blog often, though...

Jonas Brothers' New Video: Keep It Real, from their upcoming disney channel tv series J.O.N.A.S... Seriously I hate Joe Jonas's new hairstyle... it looks, super weird... like somekinda muffin top... lols.


XOXO
carmen