Today is really shit.
Started the day with Oprah (with tom cruise as her guest) and then the Rachael Ray show.
And not forgetting Roti Prata for breakfast...
went ahead to do the 综合填空 practices. I got 8 for the first one, then I got 2 for the second one, and 5 for the third one, which was like enough to demoralise me, coz i tried alot harder for the latter two, and I even thought they were easier. I felt like crap during lunch, and my parents gave me a long long talk on why A1s are unimportant, and the only important thing is to not give up. They told me that there's nothing to study for languages, and I should just chill. I finished lunch and started studying again.
I couldn't concentrate, ended up with a splitting headache... and now i'm here blogging and listening to some music. Maybe i do need to chill. I've been fighting countless battles within myself lately. Over various things... stress, pirorities, relationships, grades, attitudes... argh. And tomorrow will be the first of a series of battles called the O level Examinations.
I need time to recharge, but there doesn't seem to be any. Later i'm just gonna finish 2 more 综合填空 practices, a few more mcq comprehension passages, read some chinese articles, watch camp rock, and go to bed. I'll leave the rest of tomorrow in the hands of fate.
But good luck to all my friends taking the exams tomorrow. I'm going in tmr, with nothing but my dictionary, pencil case, my brain and faith. I hope all of you enter the exam hall filled with faith as well. Nothing's more important than that right now. Hope y'all will get the grades that you aimed for...
Best of luck everyone...
C
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
sorry for not posting for so long...
I'm so tired after so many hours of Chinese today... just blogging to rest awhile, then going off somewhere soon.
I'm half freaking out for Chinese O levels this mon. I mean like, I'm not scared of paper 1, its paper 2 that's the problem... Anyway, will try to do some mocks later to practise my speed, then memorise some chinese phrases or something. Argh...Why can't everyone just sit for the easier November Paper??
Nothing much interesting happened recently, and it's pretty much been a stress rollercoaster ride.
Oh, yesterday I went to the MRT station with Cheng Hui... we were talking halfway, then suddenly "hey you.... blah blah".... They were actually playing a rap song through the speakers, about mannerisms when taking and waiting for the train. The song was littered with Singlish, and sent Cheng Hui and I into hysterical laughter. It was so damn silly!! Trust the authorities to come up with such ideas that end up becoming a joke, rather than a measure that really works.
The new jonas brothers album is soo soo much better than their previous ones. Nick's voice finally settled. Wow... he sounds really good! Get their album=) meanwhile go to you tube to preview their songs...
Okay, i'm giving in, my eyes are closing on me...
I'm so tired after so many hours of Chinese today... just blogging to rest awhile, then going off somewhere soon.
I'm half freaking out for Chinese O levels this mon. I mean like, I'm not scared of paper 1, its paper 2 that's the problem... Anyway, will try to do some mocks later to practise my speed, then memorise some chinese phrases or something. Argh...Why can't everyone just sit for the easier November Paper??
Nothing much interesting happened recently, and it's pretty much been a stress rollercoaster ride.
Oh, yesterday I went to the MRT station with Cheng Hui... we were talking halfway, then suddenly "hey you.... blah blah".... They were actually playing a rap song through the speakers, about mannerisms when taking and waiting for the train. The song was littered with Singlish, and sent Cheng Hui and I into hysterical laughter. It was so damn silly!! Trust the authorities to come up with such ideas that end up becoming a joke, rather than a measure that really works.
The new jonas brothers album is soo soo much better than their previous ones. Nick's voice finally settled. Wow... he sounds really good! Get their album=) meanwhile go to you tube to preview their songs...
Okay, i'm giving in, my eyes are closing on me...
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
untitled.
yay... i'm finally finally finally starting to forget. it's slow, but it's happening. there's still a part of me that doesn't want to let go, but we'll just take every day as it goes. i'm even wondering now, whether forgetting is a good thing, or a bad thing... I mean it lessens some burdens, yes, but some part of you that seeks happiness out of it, will go away as well. I don't know... i really don't. but sometimes it isn't about whether these feelings are right or wrong, because they happen to be somewhere in the middle of the two, no matter which way you look at it. it's just another complicated thing in the world, which we will eventually understand, someday...
today's chinese mock paper 2 was a killer. I'm not even confident of getting an A2 this time. Just praying that O levels wouldn't be like that... if not i'll confirm be retaking in Nov. Paper 1 was easy though... I wrote the essay question on whether we should ban exams or not. I stood for banning of exams =)
soo stressed nowadays. like we have our Chinese O lvls to take care of, and yet, we have all these Bio, and Chem homework that the teachers are chasing us for. "when are you going to study your bio? June already still dunno anything, how to get distinction?" and "chem mcq, will only take one hour of your time." to quote my teachers. I know i know it's june alr, i know your homework is very very important, but seriously, can I concentrate on my Chinese PLEASE!!! After june 1st i promise i'll study like mad for my sciences... so please stop stressing me out. Still have to deal with the CCA record thing somemore. I can't believe that not a single one of my debate stuff was entered into the system at all! Now bugging the teachers to quickly enter my stuff, so I can see my points, whether its enough to deduct 2 or 1 points from my L1R5.
okay, and its confirmed that we'll be having Chinese study group on Saturday, after Mr Yip's class. All who are keen are welcome. Most probably would be held at Northpoint somewhere. See how first. will only be an hour, to go through essay writing structures, and some tips here and there.
Not enough sleep, but still mugging. Haix. There goes my teenage life.
today's chinese mock paper 2 was a killer. I'm not even confident of getting an A2 this time. Just praying that O levels wouldn't be like that... if not i'll confirm be retaking in Nov. Paper 1 was easy though... I wrote the essay question on whether we should ban exams or not. I stood for banning of exams =)
soo stressed nowadays. like we have our Chinese O lvls to take care of, and yet, we have all these Bio, and Chem homework that the teachers are chasing us for. "when are you going to study your bio? June already still dunno anything, how to get distinction?" and "chem mcq, will only take one hour of your time." to quote my teachers. I know i know it's june alr, i know your homework is very very important, but seriously, can I concentrate on my Chinese PLEASE!!! After june 1st i promise i'll study like mad for my sciences... so please stop stressing me out. Still have to deal with the CCA record thing somemore. I can't believe that not a single one of my debate stuff was entered into the system at all! Now bugging the teachers to quickly enter my stuff, so I can see my points, whether its enough to deduct 2 or 1 points from my L1R5.
okay, and its confirmed that we'll be having Chinese study group on Saturday, after Mr Yip's class. All who are keen are welcome. Most probably would be held at Northpoint somewhere. See how first. will only be an hour, to go through essay writing structures, and some tips here and there.
Not enough sleep, but still mugging. Haix. There goes my teenage life.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Gonna be Peter Parker, Spidey no more.
Regarding Sam.P's curious comments on the tagboard (man, I sound like Mrs Choo... lols) err... It's not really convenient to say the name, so infer from all the info that i've given you previously.
I took a break from doing my Physics worksheet just now, and it just happened that living room tv was on, showing Spiderman 2. I've watched that show like a gazillion times, but for the sake of taking a break, I watched 15 mins of it. The part I watched was the portion when Peter Parker was like wondering whether being Spiderman was taking away too much of his life, and he decided to dump his Spidey costume and become Peter Parker again. Great power comes great responsibility, and so goes that famous quote. It made me wonder, have I been too much of a "spiderman"?
I'm starting to regret alot alot of stuff that i've done, or committed to for the whole of this year, and last. Like I always thought I could take on that extra responsibility, just because I longed to experience different things along my sec school life. But come to think of it now, I might have been too much of a "spiderman" taking in responsibilities, burdens that have weighed down significantly on my schoolwork. Just like how Peter Parker took on the role of being Spiderman, and how his results and job performance dropped, because of that. Peter Parker chose to abandon his superhero persona, to prevent it from further eating into his own life. Of course, since Spiderman is the superhero who fights the baddies, Peter returned to his Spiderman life again.
But it's different, for me. My extra responsibilities don't include saving the world. In fact, Peter chose to be Spiderman in the end, because the importance of making society a safer place came above the importance of him being Peter. He was being selfless. For me, though, my schoolwork, my results, my personal life, should take top priority, instead of all this extra stuff. Volunteer this, volunteer that, UNSA, Scholar's cup in June, all the other blahs.... Seriously, to quote Britney Spears, "What Was I Thinking?"
I still have Scholar's cup on June the 13th, and although I am looking forward to it, the fact that I'm spending more time on studying for that ( partly because it's more interesting and also because I want to perform well for my team) than focusing on my Chinese O Levels, okay... this is worrying. So, I'm only only going to limit my time for studying for scholar's cup to all the recesses in sch. No other time, can't afford to care too much about that. We registered on a mentality that we won't win anyway.
I'm choosing Peter Parker over Spiderman. I just want a nice O level cert.
Change.
I took a break from doing my Physics worksheet just now, and it just happened that living room tv was on, showing Spiderman 2. I've watched that show like a gazillion times, but for the sake of taking a break, I watched 15 mins of it. The part I watched was the portion when Peter Parker was like wondering whether being Spiderman was taking away too much of his life, and he decided to dump his Spidey costume and become Peter Parker again. Great power comes great responsibility, and so goes that famous quote. It made me wonder, have I been too much of a "spiderman"?
I'm starting to regret alot alot of stuff that i've done, or committed to for the whole of this year, and last. Like I always thought I could take on that extra responsibility, just because I longed to experience different things along my sec school life. But come to think of it now, I might have been too much of a "spiderman" taking in responsibilities, burdens that have weighed down significantly on my schoolwork. Just like how Peter Parker took on the role of being Spiderman, and how his results and job performance dropped, because of that. Peter Parker chose to abandon his superhero persona, to prevent it from further eating into his own life. Of course, since Spiderman is the superhero who fights the baddies, Peter returned to his Spiderman life again.
But it's different, for me. My extra responsibilities don't include saving the world. In fact, Peter chose to be Spiderman in the end, because the importance of making society a safer place came above the importance of him being Peter. He was being selfless. For me, though, my schoolwork, my results, my personal life, should take top priority, instead of all this extra stuff. Volunteer this, volunteer that, UNSA, Scholar's cup in June, all the other blahs.... Seriously, to quote Britney Spears, "What Was I Thinking?"
I still have Scholar's cup on June the 13th, and although I am looking forward to it, the fact that I'm spending more time on studying for that ( partly because it's more interesting and also because I want to perform well for my team) than focusing on my Chinese O Levels, okay... this is worrying. So, I'm only only going to limit my time for studying for scholar's cup to all the recesses in sch. No other time, can't afford to care too much about that. We registered on a mentality that we won't win anyway.
I'm choosing Peter Parker over Spiderman. I just want a nice O level cert.
Change.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
paranoid...
well... i didn't have the best morning, trying to delete some unwanted content, and the internet, for some unknown reason, was so damn slow, it took me almost 45 mins to work everything out.
Regarding what WAS on the tagboard (and never will be, coz i banned the person)... there were some crap about the school again, almost copies and pastes from the culprit's personal website, and some racist remarks, and some bad stuff about one of my friends, who visits this blog oftenly. That was why I deleted all of the crap.
Thankfully, to cheer me up, the Jonas Brother's new music video is out. The song is called Paranoid, and in case you haven't heard of it, here's the music video. But warning, the ending is a lil lame. But at least it was alot better than the "Burnin Up" video. That one was really... fake.
Can't wait for the album on June 16th!
Anyway, today went out for lunch with family at Traders Hotel, near Tanglin Mall. Man the pork ribs were good. So was the Beef, and the Lamb. But their beverage prices were mad. Like a coke would cost $8.50, and an Orange Juice $9. That is ridiculous. Went for coffee and smoothies after lunch, and the smoothie at the food court in Tanglin Mall was delieesh! While the orange mango juice at the restaurant was just slighty above average.
Aww man... Mock papers again tmr. So fustrating. I know Chinese O lvls are like a week away, but don't we need a break? I mean, the mock papers would just deplete our energy for the actual thing... =( Oh, and for those interested (express chinese), we're having chinese study group sometime this week, will see how it goes, as everyone might not be able to make it on the timing that i prefer... we'll see. Inform y'all at school.
But for chinese, there's really no "studying" involved. Like you just have to go out there and do your best. Except for the Paper 1. There are certain things that the markers are looking out for, and the certain things are always the same, no matter what qn they may pose you, so ya... its mainly the structure bit. It's hard to say it in English... but Cheng Hui and Sam C alr know, since i've passed on what my tuition teacher taught me.
I'm so stuck on the song Lo Que Soy, the Spanish version of Demi Lovato's Camp rock song "this is me". The song made me realise that I almost threw away all of my Spanish, ever since I became too busy to continue learning in Sec 3. Mann... I really must buck up on my Spanish after O levels. Can't let my hard work before go to waste...
Debo trabajar duro! Consigue que lindo acento español volver... Pero ahora, permítanme centrarse en chino... Hasta luego mis amigos!
adiós
carmen
Regarding what WAS on the tagboard (and never will be, coz i banned the person)... there were some crap about the school again, almost copies and pastes from the culprit's personal website, and some racist remarks, and some bad stuff about one of my friends, who visits this blog oftenly. That was why I deleted all of the crap.
Thankfully, to cheer me up, the Jonas Brother's new music video is out. The song is called Paranoid, and in case you haven't heard of it, here's the music video. But warning, the ending is a lil lame. But at least it was alot better than the "Burnin Up" video. That one was really... fake.
Can't wait for the album on June 16th!
Anyway, today went out for lunch with family at Traders Hotel, near Tanglin Mall. Man the pork ribs were good. So was the Beef, and the Lamb. But their beverage prices were mad. Like a coke would cost $8.50, and an Orange Juice $9. That is ridiculous. Went for coffee and smoothies after lunch, and the smoothie at the food court in Tanglin Mall was delieesh! While the orange mango juice at the restaurant was just slighty above average.
Aww man... Mock papers again tmr. So fustrating. I know Chinese O lvls are like a week away, but don't we need a break? I mean, the mock papers would just deplete our energy for the actual thing... =( Oh, and for those interested (express chinese), we're having chinese study group sometime this week, will see how it goes, as everyone might not be able to make it on the timing that i prefer... we'll see. Inform y'all at school.
But for chinese, there's really no "studying" involved. Like you just have to go out there and do your best. Except for the Paper 1. There are certain things that the markers are looking out for, and the certain things are always the same, no matter what qn they may pose you, so ya... its mainly the structure bit. It's hard to say it in English... but Cheng Hui and Sam C alr know, since i've passed on what my tuition teacher taught me.
I'm so stuck on the song Lo Que Soy, the Spanish version of Demi Lovato's Camp rock song "this is me". The song made me realise that I almost threw away all of my Spanish, ever since I became too busy to continue learning in Sec 3. Mann... I really must buck up on my Spanish after O levels. Can't let my hard work before go to waste...
Debo trabajar duro! Consigue que lindo acento español volver... Pero ahora, permítanme centrarse en chino... Hasta luego mis amigos!
adiós
carmen
Friday, May 22, 2009
4th post of the week
Kris Allen feat. Keith Urban. Kiss a girl, american idol 2009 finale.
Kris Allen. No Boundaries, american idol 2009 finale.
Ohh mann... i think i'm addicted to blogging. Like i'm been blogging for like tues, wed, thurs and today. Well, I guess I'll just blog today and maybe resist the temptation to blog again tmr... maybe.... After blogging, I always feel like I'm re-energized, so I can start studying again. I wonder.
Yesterday was actually planning to skip today's sports carnival, as I was soo soo tired. I've been like studying like mad for the past 2 weeks, and I guess the lack of sleep and fatigue has finally caught up with me. Last night, I changed my mind, told myself I would wake up for the sports carnival, to support my friends in the competition, and those who organised it. But, ironically, I forgot to tell my parents that, and I overslept this morning. Woke up around 8 plus plus, with a headache. In the end, I didn't turn up for school.
Spend the day studying... Doing all the homework, and chinese mock papers, and notes for chem. It was a productive day... made a bowl of soba noodles for lunch. I've been eating school lunches so often now, that I almost forgot how good home cooked (or rather, self-cooked) lunch tasted... Not to mention its much healthier and more filling. Our school sells food in such minute portions! I usually eat like twice or thrice the portion. However, the food itself is enough to make me lose my appetite, so I only eat one... lols.
Watched a little bit of American idol last night. Kris Allen won... yay! I mean Adam Lambert is actually a very good singer, but I hate the fact he screams so much. Lots of wasted performances because of the screaming. At the finale, he performed with the heavy metal band KISS. It was scary, disgusting and gross.
Firstly, I hate heavy heavy metal.
I mean those type like Linkin Park is fine, but bands like KISS and Metallica just disgust me. Firstly those bands are made up of a few old men who dress up like aliens with painted faces and outrageous costumes. They sing "songs" with no meaning... no... they scream songs. They love to stick their tongue out at you, and other than the fact that they need tongue cleaners, I don't have a clue of what they are trying to prove.They waste money by always smashing guitars at their shows, and the only thing you'll get out of their concerts is damaged ear drums. Sorry if anyone loves those freaks but I in my point of view, they are so damn gross. Maybe its even because of that, that people didn't vote for the talented Adam, and voted for the traditional, which is Kris. That's what I would have done too, vote for Kris. His performance with Keith Urban was fantastic. Kris and Keith!! woohoo!
But I have to give credit to Adam Lambert, coz he is a good singer.
gtg, going to watch korean drama on tv... hahax.
~C
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Motivation... where's the drive?
I love the cover of the new Jonas Brother's album: Lines, Vines, and trying times. Its the coolest cover yet! Out in June 16th. Get the original. ;)I'm starting to feel really driven to study... especially after I see many people around me starting to pick up their speed in this race. Don't know how I'm gonna do this, but yeah, I'm gonna work really really really hard from now on. First target? An A1 for my upcoming chinese O levels. I will not allow myself to accept anything lower than that grade. Ever.
One week plus left for the month of May... Lots to look forward to in June, although it spells a month closer to the big O. Let's see, there's Transformers sequel, which I have to watch, there's Jonas Brothers' new album (Lines, Vines and Trying Times, although frankly I think the album name sounds a lil tacky) on June 16th, there's my scholar's cup competition on June 13th, I can't wait to meet more new ppl from other countries, and there's of course the June holiday break, where I really can sit down the whole day in my study, er... studying... Somehow I find school to not be a condusive place for studying. I love my messy desk more =)
Before I embark on the 2 Chinese Mock papers and E. maths exercises I've planned to do for today, Just one issue...
Someone is jealous.... of ME? Okay, maybe that's true, but I seriously don't see how that's possible... Yeah, my languages and humanities may be above average, but my Sciences suck... seriously, esp Physics and Chem. My E.Maths paper is crippled with careless mistakes, and other than Bionomial theorem, Coordinate Geometry, all the Differentiation and Integration, I'm a complete failure at all the other A.Maths topics. I lost track of how many A maths tests I've failed already.
I may be blessed with the most amazing parents in the world, but my family life ain't that good either. I find it really hard to trust people, because of what happened in the year of 2007. And however much I eat, I still am underweight, as I have been for my whole life, which can be really fustrating, coz you can buy certain clothes, get stereotyped for suffering from an eating disorder, which I so am not. I have a bad hair day (literarily) every morning (they just curl in all wrong directions!!), and its such a fuss to get it into a decent hairstyle for school. I failed my piano exam by 9 marks (I got 91 out of 150), because my nervousness attacks are that bad. I can never play the piano in front of anyone. You should've seen the way my hands trembled soo violently. er... Maybe you shouldn't.
So, WHY would anyone be jealous of me...? That, I really don't understand. Please enlighten me.
Mari told me not to update my Facebook page till after June 15... lols. Like I haven't went to facebook for like really long. The last thing I did was just a note with a list of songs on my music player. I'm getting bored of Facebook anyways... I still prefer Myspace, which apparently most Singaporeans don't use...
xoxo,
~C
currently listening to: Back Around, Demi Lovato.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
reflections??
Have you ever felt like somebody else has everything you want, like you would do anything to be them, only to realise that they don't see themselves the way you see them? Like they always think that they are not good enough? It's really weird in a sense, since you sorta "worship" them as yr role model or some sorts, but they think that they're not good enough. Hmmm... Just something to ponder about.
I got my Chinese Mock paper 1 back today... My god... my essays are still in good condition, i should say, but my paper 2... aarrggghhh... okay, I might have gotten 2nd in class, but I still felt like I could have done better. My parents think that i'm putting in too much pressure on myself to excel. Maybe I am... I don't know...
Today Mdm Sue gave us sort of a lecture, but not really the scolding type. Made me wonder, is it really possible for me to get 6 A1s? Well, that was the minimum she was expecting from everybody in our class. Sometimes the lectures she gives, like the way she makes us seem like we're sorta "not good enough" it gives me that little spark to work a little harder. Wonder if it's just me, or do others get this feeling too? I think it's just me... hahax. I miss Miss Sahai from Pri 6... I know it's like really long ago, but she was the teacher that kept on motivating us to strive and work harder for better results. She told us motivational stories and such almost everyday, to keep that determination in us strong. I wish there were more teachers like her.
I got a bit stressed just now, so I picked up my seventeen magazine to read. I went to the horoscope section for fun, and well, the stuff written didn't really help brighten my mood. Here's what it wrote for my horoscope sign: Be careful who you confide in this month! A jealous girl at school has just been waiting for you to drop your guard. On June 15, she'll scroll your facebook page to find something she can use against you - think twice before you post anything!
Ooookay. That's for the month of June. Who the hell is jealous of ME?
Now, I'm thinking of ways of how to reward myself after O levels, so at least I have some "bait" there, to motivate me to work even harder than I am now. I really can't think of anything. Maybe I should ask my parents for a vacation to Paris, or USA. Ahh... maybe USA! We could go to Idaho and visit Mark... hahax. Going back to Canada would be fun too, then I can get to see Celina, Andrew, Aunty Michelle and Uncle Greg again. If we really went back to Canada, I hope to go to Lake Cowichan once more. That place was like super nice. I would also like to go to Paris... how I wish I could become a perfumer... Like they only work 2 hours a day, but they earn at least 7, 000 plus Euros a month (around 21, 000 S'pore dollars) ($_$)
And all you have to do is to smell some liquids and make perfumes.
Tmr is sorta a half day for us, (except for Physics) but ya, we have some sort of motivational workshop, then something about Lord of the Flies or something like that for assembly. I absolutely HATE Lord of the Flies. Yeah... The story line is errr... unique, but the book is soo boring. Like B O R I N G. I wouldn't even get the book, even if you gave it to me for free.
Okay. Time for homework. Must Jiayou!!
C
I got my Chinese Mock paper 1 back today... My god... my essays are still in good condition, i should say, but my paper 2... aarrggghhh... okay, I might have gotten 2nd in class, but I still felt like I could have done better. My parents think that i'm putting in too much pressure on myself to excel. Maybe I am... I don't know...
Today Mdm Sue gave us sort of a lecture, but not really the scolding type. Made me wonder, is it really possible for me to get 6 A1s? Well, that was the minimum she was expecting from everybody in our class. Sometimes the lectures she gives, like the way she makes us seem like we're sorta "not good enough" it gives me that little spark to work a little harder. Wonder if it's just me, or do others get this feeling too? I think it's just me... hahax. I miss Miss Sahai from Pri 6... I know it's like really long ago, but she was the teacher that kept on motivating us to strive and work harder for better results. She told us motivational stories and such almost everyday, to keep that determination in us strong. I wish there were more teachers like her.
I got a bit stressed just now, so I picked up my seventeen magazine to read. I went to the horoscope section for fun, and well, the stuff written didn't really help brighten my mood. Here's what it wrote for my horoscope sign: Be careful who you confide in this month! A jealous girl at school has just been waiting for you to drop your guard. On June 15, she'll scroll your facebook page to find something she can use against you - think twice before you post anything!
Ooookay. That's for the month of June. Who the hell is jealous of ME?
Now, I'm thinking of ways of how to reward myself after O levels, so at least I have some "bait" there, to motivate me to work even harder than I am now. I really can't think of anything. Maybe I should ask my parents for a vacation to Paris, or USA. Ahh... maybe USA! We could go to Idaho and visit Mark... hahax. Going back to Canada would be fun too, then I can get to see Celina, Andrew, Aunty Michelle and Uncle Greg again. If we really went back to Canada, I hope to go to Lake Cowichan once more. That place was like super nice. I would also like to go to Paris... how I wish I could become a perfumer... Like they only work 2 hours a day, but they earn at least 7, 000 plus Euros a month (around 21, 000 S'pore dollars) ($_$)
And all you have to do is to smell some liquids and make perfumes.
Tmr is sorta a half day for us, (except for Physics) but ya, we have some sort of motivational workshop, then something about Lord of the Flies or something like that for assembly. I absolutely HATE Lord of the Flies. Yeah... The story line is errr... unique, but the book is soo boring. Like B O R I N G. I wouldn't even get the book, even if you gave it to me for free.
Okay. Time for homework. Must Jiayou!!
C
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
bored.
I know I just blogged like Saturday, but I feel like I haven't blogged for ages...
I really have no mood at all to do anything now... I still have my Bio practice paper to do, and my chinese mock exam exercises, which I've carried over from last week's to-do list. I've decided to start on them after dinner, probably go take a nap later, coz I'm damn tired after all the mock exams. Today's chinese paper 2 was harder than yesterday's, but paper 1 was so much easier than yesterday's. I wrote the "si han" as usual, and the question 4 for both days.
Finally got the Slumdog Millionaire DVD. I was so bummed when I couldn't watch it, just because it was NC16. Please... CSI is NC16, Prison break is even labelled M18 in some DVD stores but I still watch them. But now I can watch it... yay!
Maybe it's because i'm stressed or something, that I kinda like listening to rock songs from last week onwards. Demi Lovato's new song Back Around is quite good, and of course there's Paranoid from the Jonas Brothers. Now i'm just rumaging through youtube, seeing if there are any new songs.
I wrote a new song last night, not about me, but a Messed Up Love Story. In fact, that's the title. Got inspired by Su Xue's constant tales of 5 party or more love webs. lolx...
Okay, I guess i'd better go take a nap now, to be just in time for dinner. Having potato stew tonight... My favourite!
carmen
what is love, what it's like, do you think i'll ever find out...?
I really have no mood at all to do anything now... I still have my Bio practice paper to do, and my chinese mock exam exercises, which I've carried over from last week's to-do list. I've decided to start on them after dinner, probably go take a nap later, coz I'm damn tired after all the mock exams. Today's chinese paper 2 was harder than yesterday's, but paper 1 was so much easier than yesterday's. I wrote the "si han" as usual, and the question 4 for both days.
Finally got the Slumdog Millionaire DVD. I was so bummed when I couldn't watch it, just because it was NC16. Please... CSI is NC16, Prison break is even labelled M18 in some DVD stores but I still watch them. But now I can watch it... yay!
Maybe it's because i'm stressed or something, that I kinda like listening to rock songs from last week onwards. Demi Lovato's new song Back Around is quite good, and of course there's Paranoid from the Jonas Brothers. Now i'm just rumaging through youtube, seeing if there are any new songs.
I wrote a new song last night, not about me, but a Messed Up Love Story. In fact, that's the title. Got inspired by Su Xue's constant tales of 5 party or more love webs. lolx...
Okay, I guess i'd better go take a nap now, to be just in time for dinner. Having potato stew tonight... My favourite!
carmen
what is love, what it's like, do you think i'll ever find out...?
Saturday, May 16, 2009
RUSH and shit. =)
Today was a hell of a busy day... I didn't even get to do any homework, except for one page of the chem wksht that mdm yeo gave today.
Morning was Chem remedial, after that rushed home to change, and then rushed to Orchard for my dental appointment. My teeth are well settled in their new arrangement, but i'll still need to wear my invisalign retainers for around 2 months full time.
Next, my mom and I went to have lunch at Wisma Atria's foodcourt. Had my fav beef noodles =) We couldn't find a seat at the quiet corner of the foodcourt (the only place in the foodcourt where you can hang around even after you've finished your meal, to do some work), so I didn't manage to complete my homework at Wisma as planned. Ah well, went to do some shopping instead. Topshop was having a sale, but as usual, I'm too skinny, they didn't have my size.
Went to Mango instead, bought a knit cardigan for around 30 dollars. Quite good quality. I like their new line by Penélope Cruz, but too bad its too grown up for my age. After that, went to Takashimaya coz my mom wanted to buy some slacks.
Following which, I rushed to my Chinese Tuition. Today was the last lesson, and it was a bit sad, to break out of the routine of travelling to Bugis every Saturday for that purpose. Teacher went through for one last time on how to tackle Chinese Essay questions, and wished us the best for our O levels. But those Raffles Institution boys at the back of the class kept on talking (as usual), which was really distracting. Just because they're smart doesn't give them the privilege to disallow others who need the tuition.
Well, back to the rush. Ate a quick snack at a nearby café, then made our way back to Yishun, where my dad picked us up, and drove us to East Coast for dinner.
Alot of people joined us for dinner today. Let's see... There was my paternal side's intermediate family (My parents and I, my uncle and family, my other uncle who is single, my aunt, and my paternal grandparents). And my aunt's boyfriend, Mark, joined us as well. He'd be going back to USA tomorrow, and was nice enough to give us this dinner treat. =) My aunt's friend Stephanie came as well, she's German, and has a really likable personality! My dad's cousin, Aunt Christine came too. I haven't seen her for a long long time, and she recently returned to Singapore from Australia. We had like 2 crabs, a few veggie dishes, mushrooms and satays. Oh and that sweet sweet longan dessert thing. And my granddad HAD to order a jug of beer, which my very very very health consious second uncle fondly terms as yeast shit.
Like he told me once before that when they make alcohol, they put the yeast in the grape juice, and the yeast consumes the grape thing, and lives in there. Of course, every living organism has to shit, and yeah, the yeast pretty much shitted in the grape juice, and waalaah, you get some alcohol. In the end of the alcohol making process, the yeast were found to be all dead, and scientists have actually traced the cause of death of the yeast. The yeast had drowned in their own shit. Hahax. Hilarious, but true. And all those research about people drinking one glass of wine actually live longer and blahs, its true, because its due to the substances in the grape juice.
SO, a solution to live long and not drink shit? Drink pure grape juice instead. It keeps your heart healthy too! =) We stockpile like cartons in my home, so that's pretty much the only juice I drink, except for orange juice, which I like to buy when I'm at school.
Okays, pardon me for using the word "shit" a lot today. Its much more convenient to type than faeces. Gotta go prepare for study group tmr, so I'm gonna sign off now.=)
lovelovelove...
Carmen =D
Morning was Chem remedial, after that rushed home to change, and then rushed to Orchard for my dental appointment. My teeth are well settled in their new arrangement, but i'll still need to wear my invisalign retainers for around 2 months full time.
Next, my mom and I went to have lunch at Wisma Atria's foodcourt. Had my fav beef noodles =) We couldn't find a seat at the quiet corner of the foodcourt (the only place in the foodcourt where you can hang around even after you've finished your meal, to do some work), so I didn't manage to complete my homework at Wisma as planned. Ah well, went to do some shopping instead. Topshop was having a sale, but as usual, I'm too skinny, they didn't have my size.
Went to Mango instead, bought a knit cardigan for around 30 dollars. Quite good quality. I like their new line by Penélope Cruz, but too bad its too grown up for my age. After that, went to Takashimaya coz my mom wanted to buy some slacks.
Following which, I rushed to my Chinese Tuition. Today was the last lesson, and it was a bit sad, to break out of the routine of travelling to Bugis every Saturday for that purpose. Teacher went through for one last time on how to tackle Chinese Essay questions, and wished us the best for our O levels. But those Raffles Institution boys at the back of the class kept on talking (as usual), which was really distracting. Just because they're smart doesn't give them the privilege to disallow others who need the tuition.
Well, back to the rush. Ate a quick snack at a nearby café, then made our way back to Yishun, where my dad picked us up, and drove us to East Coast for dinner.
Alot of people joined us for dinner today. Let's see... There was my paternal side's intermediate family (My parents and I, my uncle and family, my other uncle who is single, my aunt, and my paternal grandparents). And my aunt's boyfriend, Mark, joined us as well. He'd be going back to USA tomorrow, and was nice enough to give us this dinner treat. =) My aunt's friend Stephanie came as well, she's German, and has a really likable personality! My dad's cousin, Aunt Christine came too. I haven't seen her for a long long time, and she recently returned to Singapore from Australia. We had like 2 crabs, a few veggie dishes, mushrooms and satays. Oh and that sweet sweet longan dessert thing. And my granddad HAD to order a jug of beer, which my very very very health consious second uncle fondly terms as yeast shit.
Like he told me once before that when they make alcohol, they put the yeast in the grape juice, and the yeast consumes the grape thing, and lives in there. Of course, every living organism has to shit, and yeah, the yeast pretty much shitted in the grape juice, and waalaah, you get some alcohol. In the end of the alcohol making process, the yeast were found to be all dead, and scientists have actually traced the cause of death of the yeast. The yeast had drowned in their own shit. Hahax. Hilarious, but true. And all those research about people drinking one glass of wine actually live longer and blahs, its true, because its due to the substances in the grape juice.
SO, a solution to live long and not drink shit? Drink pure grape juice instead. It keeps your heart healthy too! =) We stockpile like cartons in my home, so that's pretty much the only juice I drink, except for orange juice, which I like to buy when I'm at school.
Okays, pardon me for using the word "shit" a lot today. Its much more convenient to type than faeces. Gotta go prepare for study group tmr, so I'm gonna sign off now.=)
lovelovelove...
Carmen =D
Friday, May 15, 2009
2nd post of the day: JONAS BROTHERS SINGING IN JAPANESE! OMG.
hahahaha.... this made me laugh like crazy... its so cute! hahax
but not jonas standard... I must say...
but its funnily cute!enjoy... hahax.
ok the jap part was only in the chorus:
Don na, don na omoi moSugu kimi ni todokete ikuyoKitto, kitto sono muneHiraite kureru yone(Dan dan dan) Konran shi hajime(Dan dan dan) Ku, kurushii kurai(Dan dan dan) Koko ni oideI need you, I want youI got to have youThis infatuation
LOLS.
regret.laughs.anger.thanks
Thank god history didn't repeat itself today.
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REGRET
I'm stuck on the song What Hurts The Most, by the Rascal Flatts. I wonder why, it just seemed like a really special song to me. Like its about a guy, who is having regrets for not telling the girl he likes about his feelings, and he's saying that being beside her, watching her walk away, but not getting the chance to express how he feels.... That feeling of Regret, is what hurts the most. Pretty meaningful eh?
LAUGHS
Today, was introducing X-men to Chenghui. She knew nothing about it. I mean nothing. She didn't even know who wolverine was. Anyway, when I told her about the character Rogue, she thought it was "road".... lols! and when we talked about the character NightCrawler, she asked, " so since there's a nightcrawler, is there a dawncreeper? since the night crawls in, and dawn creep in??" Calista and I burst into laughter. The next part was better... "Oh, and is there any moonwalker or something?" Cal and I were like overcome by a laughing hysteria... Moonwalker must be Michael Jackson. Hahax.
ANGER
Graahh... I pretty angry with my Chinese, because I scored like 10 over 20 for my listening comprehension. Like WHAT? ok, I know a lot of ppl would now blast me, and say that i'm already good enough for getting a 75, A1 grade for Chinese in overall. But i'm still really really really really angry with myself. Chinese is the only subject where I have a great chance of getting an A1, and getting 75, a borderline A1, is not enough. It has to be a confirmed A1, at least a 78 or 79. I cannot risk losing this A1, as it might be my ONLY ONE. Now, i'm intending to listen to more Chinese news. And maybe when I watch my Korean drama in chinese language next time, I shall not depend on the english subtitles anymore...
THANKS
Today it rained cats and dogs. Actually I was intending to emo and walk home alone today, but the rain stopped me from doing so. But a BIG thanks to Calista and her mum! I kinda hitched a ride to northpoint on their taxi today. I saved 45 cents thanks to you!! hahax. no lahs, just joking. But seriously, thanks for the free ride. You saved me precious time, which was so much more important than the stupid 45 cents. =))
My Aunt's new boyfriend is in Singapore for a visit. He's from America, and is a really cool guy. Yesterday, he gave my grandma two American Commemorative coins. He explained to us the meaning behind why he wanted to give coins as a gift, and I felt that it was really thoughtful of him. He said that he wanted to give my grandma something, in which she could remember him by. So, he bought these coins from the American Mint, and these coins were made this year, 2009, which gives my grandma something to remember the year in which she first met him. How nice =) Of the two coins, I like the Abraham Lincoln one better... Lincoln is soo cool. This year is his 200th aniversary, so the USA Mint made a coin to commemorate him. Aaawww...
I'm really tired now, after a week at school. still have chem remedial tmr morning, though i don't know if i'm able to make it, since i have my dental appointment. Sunday would be having my 1st study group session!! i'm looking forward to it, see if it really is effective in helping to improving my studies.
Ahh... rain finally stopped. Nice weather to take a nap... but i have piles of homework. =(
P.S I don't really like the new class blog song. It's soo... eeewww. Gross. I'd rather they put Umbrella instead.
carmen
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REGRET
I'm stuck on the song What Hurts The Most, by the Rascal Flatts. I wonder why, it just seemed like a really special song to me. Like its about a guy, who is having regrets for not telling the girl he likes about his feelings, and he's saying that being beside her, watching her walk away, but not getting the chance to express how he feels.... That feeling of Regret, is what hurts the most. Pretty meaningful eh?
LAUGHS
Today, was introducing X-men to Chenghui. She knew nothing about it. I mean nothing. She didn't even know who wolverine was. Anyway, when I told her about the character Rogue, she thought it was "road".... lols! and when we talked about the character NightCrawler, she asked, " so since there's a nightcrawler, is there a dawncreeper? since the night crawls in, and dawn creep in??" Calista and I burst into laughter. The next part was better... "Oh, and is there any moonwalker or something?" Cal and I were like overcome by a laughing hysteria... Moonwalker must be Michael Jackson. Hahax.
ANGER
Graahh... I pretty angry with my Chinese, because I scored like 10 over 20 for my listening comprehension. Like WHAT? ok, I know a lot of ppl would now blast me, and say that i'm already good enough for getting a 75, A1 grade for Chinese in overall. But i'm still really really really really angry with myself. Chinese is the only subject where I have a great chance of getting an A1, and getting 75, a borderline A1, is not enough. It has to be a confirmed A1, at least a 78 or 79. I cannot risk losing this A1, as it might be my ONLY ONE. Now, i'm intending to listen to more Chinese news. And maybe when I watch my Korean drama in chinese language next time, I shall not depend on the english subtitles anymore...
THANKS
Today it rained cats and dogs. Actually I was intending to emo and walk home alone today, but the rain stopped me from doing so. But a BIG thanks to Calista and her mum! I kinda hitched a ride to northpoint on their taxi today. I saved 45 cents thanks to you!! hahax. no lahs, just joking. But seriously, thanks for the free ride. You saved me precious time, which was so much more important than the stupid 45 cents. =))
My Aunt's new boyfriend is in Singapore for a visit. He's from America, and is a really cool guy. Yesterday, he gave my grandma two American Commemorative coins. He explained to us the meaning behind why he wanted to give coins as a gift, and I felt that it was really thoughtful of him. He said that he wanted to give my grandma something, in which she could remember him by. So, he bought these coins from the American Mint, and these coins were made this year, 2009, which gives my grandma something to remember the year in which she first met him. How nice =) Of the two coins, I like the Abraham Lincoln one better... Lincoln is soo cool. This year is his 200th aniversary, so the USA Mint made a coin to commemorate him. Aaawww...
I'm really tired now, after a week at school. still have chem remedial tmr morning, though i don't know if i'm able to make it, since i have my dental appointment. Sunday would be having my 1st study group session!! i'm looking forward to it, see if it really is effective in helping to improving my studies.
Ahh... rain finally stopped. Nice weather to take a nap... but i have piles of homework. =(
P.S I don't really like the new class blog song. It's soo... eeewww. Gross. I'd rather they put Umbrella instead.
carmen
Thursday, May 14, 2009
MEAN
ok. today i just realised that some people are really freaky. They have like double faces. I think some people should just get their facts straight and stop messing with the innocent. If you decide to 宣战 with my friend, hell ya, i'll declare war against you for the exact same grounds. You and I are in the same type of situation and I should be hating you, but I choose not to. I hope that you'll make the right choice as well.
for the entire day, i was wishing for once, that my speculations about certain stuff were wrong. I mean, i don't mind if it were right if I hadn't found out, but seriously, not so good things would come out of it.
Don't mind if you don't get what I'm saying. Its not about 4H or even this school. I'm just ranting some stuff out.
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We had dance practice today... Actually dance is quite fun, but I skipped alot of the tuesday morning sessions =X because, Tuesday mornings are the only time in which i can catch up on my sleep. The solo parts of the dance were okay, but when it got to the couple part, things got messed up. lols... I was looking around for my partner, with Su Xue, and then by the time we found our partners the rest had already started dancing. and we all just went like Huh? Huh? and then it was solo part again, then couple part and then more huh?s. It was really fun though, I had a great time!! =)
Today we(SuXue,Cal, Kharmei and Me) had recess with JJ, to discuss something regarding another close friend of mine. And pleaaasse.. "some people" (you know who you are) were trying to take a paparazzi shot. Cummon... Like it was SO obvious. Get a life, Eat your food, people. Good Riddance.
And I wish some people could just stop being mean at your mates. You might not like them very much but that gives you no right to hurt them emotionally like that. Sometimes words hurt more than physical blows. I've been at the recieving end before and I'll tell you that I really cannot stand the same thing happening to anyone else.
Grahhhs. got a tonne of homework to finish, coz I spent my entire last night blogging, watching cartoons and facebooking. Thank God there's Criminal Minds tonight. Something to keep me entertained while doing Chinese.
~invisible... my new blog theme song.
C
just close your eyes and forget.
for the entire day, i was wishing for once, that my speculations about certain stuff were wrong. I mean, i don't mind if it were right if I hadn't found out, but seriously, not so good things would come out of it.
Don't mind if you don't get what I'm saying. Its not about 4H or even this school. I'm just ranting some stuff out.
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We had dance practice today... Actually dance is quite fun, but I skipped alot of the tuesday morning sessions =X because, Tuesday mornings are the only time in which i can catch up on my sleep. The solo parts of the dance were okay, but when it got to the couple part, things got messed up. lols... I was looking around for my partner, with Su Xue, and then by the time we found our partners the rest had already started dancing. and we all just went like Huh? Huh? and then it was solo part again, then couple part and then more huh?s. It was really fun though, I had a great time!! =)
Today we(SuXue,Cal, Kharmei and Me) had recess with JJ, to discuss something regarding another close friend of mine. And pleaaasse.. "some people" (you know who you are) were trying to take a paparazzi shot. Cummon... Like it was SO obvious. Get a life, Eat your food, people. Good Riddance.
And I wish some people could just stop being mean at your mates. You might not like them very much but that gives you no right to hurt them emotionally like that. Sometimes words hurt more than physical blows. I've been at the recieving end before and I'll tell you that I really cannot stand the same thing happening to anyone else.
Grahhhs. got a tonne of homework to finish, coz I spent my entire last night blogging, watching cartoons and facebooking. Thank God there's Criminal Minds tonight. Something to keep me entertained while doing Chinese.
~invisible... my new blog theme song.
C
just close your eyes and forget.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
there's a hero in you! LOLs.
today was chinese oral... I think I did okay... but maybe a bit badly for the reading section, coz I choked up at a couple of words. But the teacher was very very very nice. He was pretty encouraging, even told us how to improve at the end of the examination. =) Kudos to him.
Some unpleasant stuff happened during oral today, but I think that I shouldn't say it out without someone else's permission.
Just watched the cartoon Legion of Superheroes for like 1 hour on Okto. hahax. You might me thinking i'm mad. First X-men and now Legion of Superheroes. lols... actually justice league came way before the two... okays, call me childish or superhero freak or whatever. It was the last episodes, and I had to catch it. It was cool, I liked the way they drew superman, not so big and bulky like the original. But Lightning Lad is my fav =) Watching all these superhero shows throw me into endless imagination, and takes my stress away... They give you a good sense of hope that there are good people that are willing to put others above themselves. Whether its false hope or not, that i won't argue, but it makes me feel good. Bahh... that's all that matters. The picture above is slightly ill-proportioned, but its the best I could find...
I'm really worried about a lot of my friends right now... they seem to be losing their drive and motivation in studying, and thinking that they are failures when they are so so totally not. Don't give up on yourselves...okay? I mean studies aren't everything, yes, and I'm sure that there are bigger dreams insight, great things that you want to achieve in life, that... you might not feel is related to what you're doing now. You might feel that what you're studying has no co-relation at all to the things that you wanna achieve. Yes, this might be true, but I mean, don't let that curb your drive for studying. There's no doubt that all of you are going to grow up, and achieve wonderful things. I know you will.
But, just look at studying this way, if you can work hard, and gain some success in this, it'll be a learning journey, it'll be a process, during which you'll learn more about yourself, your friends, and more importantly, learning not to give up, no matter what obstacles you might face. At least someday in the future, after you've found your path, you can look back, and have less regrets. You won't regret that you've stumbled in life, just because you didn't put enough effort into certain things. Focus on the factors that you have influence on, which is your FAITH in yourself, not the subjects that you take, or even some unrealistic comments that others make of you. We all can make it through, if we believe that we can. Our destiny is a matter of choice, not chance. Nobody is a failure, so don't think yourself as one. Don't you ever. e v e r.
lovelovelove
carmen
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mommy's day... not my day.
My sore throat has gone, fever doesn't bother me anymore... but this stupid runny nose is still lingering. My nose drop has since expired, so I can't use it anymore,so I'm still sniffering everywhere I go... Dang.
Physics SPA on Tues, I haven't got a clue about what to do... I don't even get what Mr Lee is saying... going to clarify with Cheng Hui tmr. See how... I think I'm gonna flunk this SPA. Even if its an Actual SPA, I don't feel the need or have the mood to do well for it, no matter how hard I try to motivate myself to do so...
Okay... "you-know-who" just smsed me a very... er... strange message. Right... I have no idea how or what to answer her. Here's her qn : how many times have people not zipped his pants in front of any female, other than his wife?
wow. I would really "love" to answer that, but I haven't got a clue to the answer... Anyone wants to give a shot at answering?? I would gladly and be more than willing to help her with school and homework, but sometimes, when she poses such questions to me, I really am stumped.
I still haven't finished a single homework, working on Chemistry now. Is there any way that I can skip the Physics SPA? Coz I really really cannot do Heat capacity chapter. I can't. Maybe I should go to Mr Goh's class tmr morning and do my work. Maybe I can concentrate more there.
Argghh... I only can breathe through 1.5 of my nose. It doesn't feel good at all.
Newspaper says that the all infamous Mas Selemat only swimmed 1.1 km to reach Malaysia. He started swimming from somewhere at Admiralty west road or something. That's about 20 laps in a swimming pool, and the expert they consulted in the newspapers said that "it was something that any schoolboy could do"... Didn't know it was that easy to escape Singapore. Not that I'll attempt that, though. Aquaphobic here, can't swim well. I only can swim like near the edges of the pool, where I know that there's something for me to grab if I happen to drown or whatever. Otherwise, you won't see in waters more than 1 metre deep without a board.
I'm soo tired. Somehow I think my flu may be returning. Maybe I should take Mdm Yeo's advice and wind down. Relax... But there's just too many things too little time.
I wasn't feeling too great or estatic today, so I haven't wished my Mom a happy Mother's day yet... I think, given my nasty mood now, it wouldn't sound sincere at all. Perhaps later, when my spirits pick up a bit. But I love my mom, nevertheless. It doesn't have to be mothers day to treat her especially nice. It should be everyday... But too often a time, she gets on the recieving end of my stressed out mind. Sorry mom, and thanks for tolerating =)
Okays, better get back to alcohols and carboxylic acids now.
carmen.
Physics SPA on Tues, I haven't got a clue about what to do... I don't even get what Mr Lee is saying... going to clarify with Cheng Hui tmr. See how... I think I'm gonna flunk this SPA. Even if its an Actual SPA, I don't feel the need or have the mood to do well for it, no matter how hard I try to motivate myself to do so...
Okay... "you-know-who" just smsed me a very... er... strange message. Right... I have no idea how or what to answer her. Here's her qn : how many times have people not zipped his pants in front of any female, other than his wife?
wow. I would really "love" to answer that, but I haven't got a clue to the answer... Anyone wants to give a shot at answering?? I would gladly and be more than willing to help her with school and homework, but sometimes, when she poses such questions to me, I really am stumped.
I still haven't finished a single homework, working on Chemistry now. Is there any way that I can skip the Physics SPA? Coz I really really cannot do Heat capacity chapter. I can't. Maybe I should go to Mr Goh's class tmr morning and do my work. Maybe I can concentrate more there.
Argghh... I only can breathe through 1.5 of my nose. It doesn't feel good at all.
Newspaper says that the all infamous Mas Selemat only swimmed 1.1 km to reach Malaysia. He started swimming from somewhere at Admiralty west road or something. That's about 20 laps in a swimming pool, and the expert they consulted in the newspapers said that "it was something that any schoolboy could do"... Didn't know it was that easy to escape Singapore. Not that I'll attempt that, though. Aquaphobic here, can't swim well. I only can swim like near the edges of the pool, where I know that there's something for me to grab if I happen to drown or whatever. Otherwise, you won't see in waters more than 1 metre deep without a board.
I'm soo tired. Somehow I think my flu may be returning. Maybe I should take Mdm Yeo's advice and wind down. Relax... But there's just too many things too little time.
I wasn't feeling too great or estatic today, so I haven't wished my Mom a happy Mother's day yet... I think, given my nasty mood now, it wouldn't sound sincere at all. Perhaps later, when my spirits pick up a bit. But I love my mom, nevertheless. It doesn't have to be mothers day to treat her especially nice. It should be everyday... But too often a time, she gets on the recieving end of my stressed out mind. Sorry mom, and thanks for tolerating =)
Okays, better get back to alcohols and carboxylic acids now.
carmen.
Friday, May 8, 2009
untitled
Marisol sent me this... I found it cute=)
Again... I'm just bloggin coz i'm bored. I'm hungry and still waiting for my dad to buy dinner back. I can't think when I'm hungry, so ya... I can't do homework or any of those productive stuff to keep me occupied. okays... I just gave an explanation on how I came to be bored...
I can't recall learning much in school today except that short "speech" Mdm Yeo gave us about saying no to things, learning how to prioritise your stuff and managing your time. Things that I only introduced to my life this year. It helped boost my grades a little, but not alot. I wonder how people like Qi Guang actually juggle everything they have to do. Seriously I don't get how they do that. My dad's another one in that group. They finish all their work, get outstanding results, and still have time to be happy. I always find that I still lack time to sort out my various stuffies. Of course, stepping down from debate helped, but right after that, all the remedials and supplementaries poured in, so i don't really see the difference in the amount of time I have left for self revision and study. and to be happy.
Ahhh... crap. Physics SPA on tues. I don't really understand the experiment. Like really, I don't. I really feel like giving up on Physics totally, and just focus on Chem and Bio. Biology is the best one... just memorise everything... and there's your A. Chemistry is getting slightly easier for me, ever since i started revising and doing questions. Physics is still.... er... hanging by a thread on the end of a cliff?? Ya...
Ms Kaur gave me 35/40 for my English oral practice =) That really made my day.
Su Xue is sick... having fever, coz she got caught in the rain, one of the mornings while she was cycling to school. I really hope she gets well soon... she falls sick too easily. It's worrisome.
and FYI, I'm sorta managing my emotions really well right now. Like I can control it, and not let it control me, and drive me nuts. I won't say that i've totally forgotten, like there were a few times when I thought that I was officially totally over, but once you see that guy, its like ... ... ... well, your heart melts, your feelings get all confused, tangled,and it comes back. What can I say? Its pretty hard to totally forget someone (ok, i admit, its virtually impossible for me, within a short period of time) so I've sorta employed a new tatic, which is to manage. Yeah, the feelings for that someone will still be there, sometimes you still have those all too perfect daydreams of fairytale endings and I'm not suppressing it, just acknowleging that the feelings exist, whilst I go about my life. its a lovebug... (jonas!!) lolx. But if ya wanna ask me who that person is, as i've said before, my lips are sealed. Here's to me, moving on.
Going to grab some agar-agar I made from the fridge, I really am food deprived.
I'm dreaming of making pancakes for breakfast... maybe I shall just do that, for mother's day =)
I miss the fresh Canadian Maple Syrup that goes with it, though. its hard to find authentic fresh maple syrup here, so usually we substitute it with honey when we make pancakes.
Oh, and I just found out that Kira Plastinina's stores in USA have all closed down. she's not doing well there, but her business is brisk back in russia. Sad... I love the clothes that she designs. A teenage millionaire's heiress, with a fashion street label. My dream... But of course, let's focus on reality, which is 7-9 points (w/out bonus) for O levels. 加油!
double XO,
carmen
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Untitled.
I limited myself to only 10 more minutes on the computer, so I'm really gonna type fast... Pls Excuse any typo errors if there are any =)
"u know who" has been smsing me about homework and school these few days, and I've been trying to help her catch up... Really, she is a nice person, once you learnt how to accept her, er, imperfections. After reading so many books on psychology, the best way is just to accept her as who she is, and not to discriminate her. It's only the right thing to do. I think she doesn't like certain teachers because they failed to take into considerations her imperfections, and sort of forced stress and workload on her, which can (and has) sorta trigger a backlash reaction. Not the teachers fault though, cause i'm guessing they don't read psychology as a off-school hobby like me...
Had this skin care course by Shiseido in school today. They taught us how to apply basic make-up and all... Learnt a few stuff, including Cheng Hui's paranioa of eye makeup. =) Shiseido even gave us like 2 tiny bottles of cleanser and moisturiser. But they didn't mention anything about acne caused by overproduction of hormones due to stress though. Haix... I don't have acne when i'm not stressed. or when i'm in temperate, four seasons climate.
Xians... have Emaths probability test tmr. I really don't have the mood to study for it. But good luck to all for that test!! I've been having gastric pains for the whole day, eating food (the usual remedy) doesn't even help make it go away.
I've been thinking somewhat about my career options lately, and I felt that maybe it would be more practical for me to go into fashion marketing and merchandising, getting the links and connections and all, before diving into fashion desing. At least you get a stable income in marketing and merchandising... and dealing with advertising is fun too =) I'm also thinking of taking theatre arts in Uni... so maybe I can try out acting for awhile whilst studying, just for the fun of it. =) I also wanna take psychology... coz its soo intriguing. wow... i guess i've got my hands full on that
I soo wanted to go to the IB programme in St Joeseph Independent International school... As it would be a new experience rather than going for A levels. But Cheng Hui just called to say that the application fees is $2700. wtf. Seriously, they don't need $2700 to process a damn form. And if we can't get in, they'll only refund $ 1000+. It's not that i can't afford the price or something, its just too ridculous to "give away" money like that. Its just practically madness. There goes my dream for IB. I guess its off to Nanyang JC then...
Oh, and pls don't ask me who I like or anything along those lines, coz I'm not so silly to tell you. My advice? Give up guessing. some of the guesses only make me laugh. =)
Whoops... gtg now... I'm 3 mins overtime...
But I hope you like the new music on the blog... I kinda got tired of listening to "Hot n Cold" over and over again.
toodles =P
~C
"u know who" has been smsing me about homework and school these few days, and I've been trying to help her catch up... Really, she is a nice person, once you learnt how to accept her, er, imperfections. After reading so many books on psychology, the best way is just to accept her as who she is, and not to discriminate her. It's only the right thing to do. I think she doesn't like certain teachers because they failed to take into considerations her imperfections, and sort of forced stress and workload on her, which can (and has) sorta trigger a backlash reaction. Not the teachers fault though, cause i'm guessing they don't read psychology as a off-school hobby like me...
Had this skin care course by Shiseido in school today. They taught us how to apply basic make-up and all... Learnt a few stuff, including Cheng Hui's paranioa of eye makeup. =) Shiseido even gave us like 2 tiny bottles of cleanser and moisturiser. But they didn't mention anything about acne caused by overproduction of hormones due to stress though. Haix... I don't have acne when i'm not stressed. or when i'm in temperate, four seasons climate.
Xians... have Emaths probability test tmr. I really don't have the mood to study for it. But good luck to all for that test!! I've been having gastric pains for the whole day, eating food (the usual remedy) doesn't even help make it go away.
I've been thinking somewhat about my career options lately, and I felt that maybe it would be more practical for me to go into fashion marketing and merchandising, getting the links and connections and all, before diving into fashion desing. At least you get a stable income in marketing and merchandising... and dealing with advertising is fun too =) I'm also thinking of taking theatre arts in Uni... so maybe I can try out acting for awhile whilst studying, just for the fun of it. =) I also wanna take psychology... coz its soo intriguing. wow... i guess i've got my hands full on that
I soo wanted to go to the IB programme in St Joeseph Independent International school... As it would be a new experience rather than going for A levels. But Cheng Hui just called to say that the application fees is $2700. wtf. Seriously, they don't need $2700 to process a damn form. And if we can't get in, they'll only refund $ 1000+. It's not that i can't afford the price or something, its just too ridculous to "give away" money like that. Its just practically madness. There goes my dream for IB. I guess its off to Nanyang JC then...
Oh, and pls don't ask me who I like or anything along those lines, coz I'm not so silly to tell you. My advice? Give up guessing. some of the guesses only make me laugh. =)
Whoops... gtg now... I'm 3 mins overtime...
But I hope you like the new music on the blog... I kinda got tired of listening to "Hot n Cold" over and over again.
toodles =P
~C
Monday, May 4, 2009
aimless.
OK, I really dunno why i'm blogging now, because I really have nothing to say. =X I just feel like typing something out...
Ok... i'm gonna sorta relate to y'all something that I found out this morning, which errr... Calista alr covered in her blog... "you-know-who" actually has her mind set on somebody else. so a very very kind piece of advice goes out to the ppl who don't like her. Please do not criticise her anymore for reasons that would result in a win-win situation. The more you condemn her, the more trouble will stick on to you. And trust me, you wouldn't want that. okayss... this is really vague, but to all the smart asses in the class who dislike "you-know-who", please take this advice, leave her alone, do what's best for yourself. ya...?
My flu got worse in school today, as expected, and well I screwed up my Physic SPA big time, as expected. And I was kinda avoiding someone today, so I wouldn't pass my flu over. I found myself laughing at my silliness.
Oh... and I watched X-men 3: The last stand for the 2nd time yesterday. It still managed to amaze me. I'm so wishing they make an X-men 4...
Ah well... I really have nothing to say, except that i'm getting damned stressed that there is going to be a Maths test this Friday, and a Bio Test this wednesday, and Maybe even E.maths exam on thursday, which I hope is so not going to come true. Plus Physics SPA Actual on nxt tuesday. My head is definitely going to blow.
Today really sucked, and heres to hoping tomorrow would be better.
xoxo
~C
Ok... i'm gonna sorta relate to y'all something that I found out this morning, which errr... Calista alr covered in her blog... "you-know-who" actually has her mind set on somebody else. so a very very kind piece of advice goes out to the ppl who don't like her. Please do not criticise her anymore for reasons that would result in a win-win situation. The more you condemn her, the more trouble will stick on to you. And trust me, you wouldn't want that. okayss... this is really vague, but to all the smart asses in the class who dislike "you-know-who", please take this advice, leave her alone, do what's best for yourself. ya...?
My flu got worse in school today, as expected, and well I screwed up my Physic SPA big time, as expected. And I was kinda avoiding someone today, so I wouldn't pass my flu over. I found myself laughing at my silliness.
Oh... and I watched X-men 3: The last stand for the 2nd time yesterday. It still managed to amaze me. I'm so wishing they make an X-men 4...
Ah well... I really have nothing to say, except that i'm getting damned stressed that there is going to be a Maths test this Friday, and a Bio Test this wednesday, and Maybe even E.maths exam on thursday, which I hope is so not going to come true. Plus Physics SPA Actual on nxt tuesday. My head is definitely going to blow.
Today really sucked, and heres to hoping tomorrow would be better.
xoxo
~C
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Flu for thoughts. =P
Went to the doctor today, because the fever came back last night. Came back with 5 types of medicine: tablets for fever, anitbiotics, pills for runny nose, MAC lozenges for sore throat, and a bottle of nose drop. I've totally lost my sense of taste and smell, but i'm feeling okay about it.
I'm so bummed that I have to skip Chinese tuition because of my flu... I love tuition classes. My teacher is really enthusiatic and engaging during lessons, so i'm never bored. Now, I'm working on a few chinese exercises, just to sorta "弥补" or "repay" (though i doubt that's the correct meaning of what i'm trying to express...) for the one lesson i missed.
Obama is visiting Singapore soon for the APEC meeting held here... and He might be holding Town Hall style meeting sessions for Singaporean youth =) double smiles. I'm so so so so attending if that happens. I would like scramble for a seat. Obama is like one of the people in the world that I want to meet the most, and in my opinion, he's doing a fantastic job in running USA, despite all the problems left behind by the Bush Administration plus the bad global economy and the new threat of swine flu. God Bless America!! XD They say he's reading up on Ronald Reagan's era to figure how Reagan handled the Great Depression. Other's suggest that he should read up on the Frost Nixon period to find out how to deal with his opposition political aggressors. But I believe he'll help America pull through this crisis. I think he has the ability to do so. Obama rocks!
Just visited PuYu's blog, out of boredom, and curiousity... She has not changed a bit.
Complaining time:
Now i'm only left with Chemistry homework =( yucks. I really don't have any affinity with that subject. My public enemy no. 1. If only I could borrow Calista's brain for like an hour or two, just so I can finish that piece of homework. I could lend her mine for her Social studies SBQ homework in return. If only.
Just not looking forward to school on Monday, for various reasons. Mondays and Wednesdays are like the longest days in the week, and its just a dread to be stuck in school in this heat, with all the dry subjects and to add to my misery, my flu. Plus, there's Physics SPA practice, which i haven't even studied. I plan to just skim through tomorrow night. I betcha I'll screw that SPA up big time.
People say that finding pleasure is not a matter of doing what you like, but liking what you do. But seriously, some things in this world, have no reason to be liked at all in the first place. Finding the pleasures in the little things that happen in life helps downplay the unhappiness, but not eradicate it.
~C
I'm so bummed that I have to skip Chinese tuition because of my flu... I love tuition classes. My teacher is really enthusiatic and engaging during lessons, so i'm never bored. Now, I'm working on a few chinese exercises, just to sorta "弥补" or "repay" (though i doubt that's the correct meaning of what i'm trying to express...) for the one lesson i missed.
Obama is visiting Singapore soon for the APEC meeting held here... and He might be holding Town Hall style meeting sessions for Singaporean youth =) double smiles. I'm so so so so attending if that happens. I would like scramble for a seat. Obama is like one of the people in the world that I want to meet the most, and in my opinion, he's doing a fantastic job in running USA, despite all the problems left behind by the Bush Administration plus the bad global economy and the new threat of swine flu. God Bless America!! XD They say he's reading up on Ronald Reagan's era to figure how Reagan handled the Great Depression. Other's suggest that he should read up on the Frost Nixon period to find out how to deal with his opposition political aggressors. But I believe he'll help America pull through this crisis. I think he has the ability to do so. Obama rocks!
Just visited PuYu's blog, out of boredom, and curiousity... She has not changed a bit.
Complaining time:
Now i'm only left with Chemistry homework =( yucks. I really don't have any affinity with that subject. My public enemy no. 1. If only I could borrow Calista's brain for like an hour or two, just so I can finish that piece of homework. I could lend her mine for her Social studies SBQ homework in return. If only.
Just not looking forward to school on Monday, for various reasons. Mondays and Wednesdays are like the longest days in the week, and its just a dread to be stuck in school in this heat, with all the dry subjects and to add to my misery, my flu. Plus, there's Physics SPA practice, which i haven't even studied. I plan to just skim through tomorrow night. I betcha I'll screw that SPA up big time.
People say that finding pleasure is not a matter of doing what you like, but liking what you do. But seriously, some things in this world, have no reason to be liked at all in the first place. Finding the pleasures in the little things that happen in life helps downplay the unhappiness, but not eradicate it.
~C
Friday, May 1, 2009
*sniff...* vintage...
Decided to blog early today... before getting started on homework and revision.
I just found a freaking beautiful pair of Vintage Oxford Flats that my grandmother bought from Canada... They are soo damn gorgeous that I don't even know if I can bear wearing them outside to get them all dirty and such. maybe I will snap a photo of those shoes and post them up sometime.
My fever came back for a short visit in the middle of the night, but has since left. It did leave me a house-warming gift though, my acne are swelling less now, thanks to the fever =) So i think I should be able to catch a movie next week =)
Really don't have the feel to start on any homework now. Just wish to bob to some Katy Perry, Taylor Swift and Rascal Flatts tunes... Although my voice is almost totally destroyed by the sore throat, I still can lip-sync, right?
Was reading the Urban section in today's newspaper, and the last column featured a 13 year old Brazilian Model. She's working for Ford models. Once was my dream, to walk a catwalk, but I realise that I'm too short. I'm soo envious of her height... I mean she's 13, and she 1.78m! ok she's a little taller than my dad. I'm just wishing that i would reach 1.65m. I'm 1.62m now, so 3 more cm to grow by the end of next year, before the "growing season" ends.
Grah... no exemption for housework despite flu. =) better stop blogging before someone uses this as a substantive for their argument.
Once a debater, always a debater. Hahax.
~C
I just found a freaking beautiful pair of Vintage Oxford Flats that my grandmother bought from Canada... They are soo damn gorgeous that I don't even know if I can bear wearing them outside to get them all dirty and such. maybe I will snap a photo of those shoes and post them up sometime.
My fever came back for a short visit in the middle of the night, but has since left. It did leave me a house-warming gift though, my acne are swelling less now, thanks to the fever =) So i think I should be able to catch a movie next week =)
Really don't have the feel to start on any homework now. Just wish to bob to some Katy Perry, Taylor Swift and Rascal Flatts tunes... Although my voice is almost totally destroyed by the sore throat, I still can lip-sync, right?
Was reading the Urban section in today's newspaper, and the last column featured a 13 year old Brazilian Model. She's working for Ford models. Once was my dream, to walk a catwalk, but I realise that I'm too short. I'm soo envious of her height... I mean she's 13, and she 1.78m! ok she's a little taller than my dad. I'm just wishing that i would reach 1.65m. I'm 1.62m now, so 3 more cm to grow by the end of next year, before the "growing season" ends.
Grah... no exemption for housework despite flu. =) better stop blogging before someone uses this as a substantive for their argument.
Once a debater, always a debater. Hahax.
~C
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