wow... lots been happening lately. and my mountain of homework is totally not helping.
I've been thinking about what to do for Mdm Sue's lesson on Wednesday. She wants us to do either newspaper article sharing or show and tell. I think i'll do show and tell, coz i seriously think that newspaper article sharing is kinda boring. I mean like what am i going to talk about Earth Hour?? zzzzzz.
But the problem is, i've nothing to "show and tell"... ok fine, I'm a boring person, but seriously i'm not materialistic. So my items and belonging don't really have a story behind them. My choice for now would be my Taylor Swift CD. But i still don't have much to talk about. One problem unsolved.
Friday's PTA meeting went ookay. Like I got Ms Kaur instead of Mrs Choo (though I'm curious about what Mrs Choo is going to say about me =)) She basically had nothing real bad to say about me, but she said I needed serious work on my Maths, AMaths and Physics (notice the relation? all calculations. yuck). And she said that I could get A1 for my Comb. Humanities and English. Languages and Humanities rule!
Well, hope you like that new "picture" for my blog header. I kinda made it in like 5 mins, so its not like spectacular. But TAYLOR SWIFT RULES!
Whoops, gotta go study for my A Maths test on Tues. I'm soo totally dead. xP
now listening to: "I'm Only Me When I'm With You" by Taylor Swift !!!
I'm only me, who I wanna be, I'm only me when I'm with you!]
lols
c.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
CRAZIER
I love that new Taylor Swift song that she sang in a guest appearance in Hannah Montana the Movie... the song's name is crazier... I'm listening to that like over and over again now.
FINALLY... I changed my specs. Like i've been waiting forever to change it. Its frameless, and cherry pink =)
yeahs, going to watch Jonas Brothers 3D Live with Cal and Suxue, ahhh NICK JONAS! Its opens on 9th April if I'm not wrong... so we can go after sports day =) yippee!
My report book is officially lost. It just disappeared into thin air. Mrs Choo can't find it. Ms Kaur says its fine, coz the school has copies of my past records. I was almost scared to death when I first heard it was missing...
PTA meeting today... or like Singaporeans would call it "Meet the Parents Session". I don't like that term coz its lengthy, and it reminds me of the movie "Meet the Fockers"... !! I hope Mrs Choo won't say anything bad about me! I got a shock today when my results slip said I got 37.1 marks for my A Maths. MY GODD... thankfully it was a MISTAKE. The register no.s were kinda mixed up, so I got someone else's marks. Thank Thank Thank Thank GOD~! I didn't need another shock to add on to the lost report book.
ANyways... Here is the lyrics for "Crazier" performed by my favourite artist TAYLOR SWIFT.
I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where I want to go to
You open the door
Theres so much more
I've never seen it before
Always tryin to fly
But I couldnt find wings
But you came along and you changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like im fallin'and I
Am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
I've watched from a distance as you
Made up your room?
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like im fallin' and I
Am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
OhhBaby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Ohh ohh
You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, craizer
Feels like im fallin' and I
Am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier, crazier
Sunday, March 22, 2009
my friends are back!
~ Yeah ~
Went to Changi Airport yesterday, to pick up Su Xue, and also to welcome ChengHui back from her strenous Nepal school trip that I was so sore about not going (thank GOD!)
Su Xue gained a bit of weight =) and looked more radiant than usual.
While Cheng Hui on the other hand, lets put it this way, she went through alot of hardship through the 11days, with no hot water, electricity, or proper sanitation. If it was me, I wouldn't really mind the lack of electricity or whatsoever, but its the FOOD. hahax. I have a damn weak stomach, and I guess I would be puking (vomiting) for like all 11 days. I wouldn't mind going even if it was a puking trip, but I really WOULD mind if my classmates and my teachers were to see me in that state, and if I would become more of a burden.
Well... all the boys got tanned, the girls slimmed down mostly, and well, the teachers didn't look too good themselves. But I was happy to see Cheng Hui.
And Su Xue was soo sweet, she brought tea and an entire tea set back for me! It's great to have such good friends! She definitely glowed more than usual, unlike me, who still bears panda eyes from mugging away at the mountainous homework.
Ahh... I wish I had gone out of the country this March. I would have gone to New York if I could. Well, it puts me at peace to see all my friends safe and sound, although many did not notice my presence at the airport yesterday. Can't blame them, they must miss their family. I know I would.
That's all to post about for today I guess =)
Now the only thing not to look forward to, is tmr, which is the freaking first day of the second school term. damn.
whattheheck....
Went to Changi Airport yesterday, to pick up Su Xue, and also to welcome ChengHui back from her strenous Nepal school trip that I was so sore about not going (thank GOD!)
Su Xue gained a bit of weight =) and looked more radiant than usual.
While Cheng Hui on the other hand, lets put it this way, she went through alot of hardship through the 11days, with no hot water, electricity, or proper sanitation. If it was me, I wouldn't really mind the lack of electricity or whatsoever, but its the FOOD. hahax. I have a damn weak stomach, and I guess I would be puking (vomiting) for like all 11 days. I wouldn't mind going even if it was a puking trip, but I really WOULD mind if my classmates and my teachers were to see me in that state, and if I would become more of a burden.
Well... all the boys got tanned, the girls slimmed down mostly, and well, the teachers didn't look too good themselves. But I was happy to see Cheng Hui.
And Su Xue was soo sweet, she brought tea and an entire tea set back for me! It's great to have such good friends! She definitely glowed more than usual, unlike me, who still bears panda eyes from mugging away at the mountainous homework.
Ahh... I wish I had gone out of the country this March. I would have gone to New York if I could. Well, it puts me at peace to see all my friends safe and sound, although many did not notice my presence at the airport yesterday. Can't blame them, they must miss their family. I know I would.
That's all to post about for today I guess =)
Now the only thing not to look forward to, is tmr, which is the freaking first day of the second school term. damn.
whattheheck....
Friday, March 20, 2009
StREssed
OMG... only 4 days to PIANO EXAM... ahhh....
I can play quite well now, but once i'm nervous,... wahhh everything goes down the drain... My godd... I'm so afraid.
Seriously, i'm scared stiff.
This sunday there's mock exam... I'm scared for that too. This is soo stressful...
Why the March holidays pass so fast? I haven't even finished half of the homework yet... Everything's getting too much... I'm just soo stressed!! I want, no, I NEED more day offs.
at least tmr is something to look 4ward to... i'm going to pick up my 2 BFFs from the airport tmr...
haix. still everythings so totally not going my way.
carmen
I can play quite well now, but once i'm nervous,... wahhh everything goes down the drain... My godd... I'm so afraid.
Seriously, i'm scared stiff.
This sunday there's mock exam... I'm scared for that too. This is soo stressful...
Why the March holidays pass so fast? I haven't even finished half of the homework yet... Everything's getting too much... I'm just soo stressed!! I want, no, I NEED more day offs.
at least tmr is something to look 4ward to... i'm going to pick up my 2 BFFs from the airport tmr...
haix. still everythings so totally not going my way.
carmen
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Piano exam jitters.
I really really really don't want to fail my piano exam, and I'm praying and practicing damn hard, in order to avoid that. This is like Grade 8, the final year, and I really just wanna get it over and done with.
Been practicing like crazy these few days, I wanna pass. Even by one mark, I want to. However much I practice, I keep thinking that "no, i can't do this. its impossible"...
But aft a lot a lot of practice, i'm finally getting some confidence back.
My end goal? Finish up piano, so I can start learning the guitar immediately after O levels =)
its hard, but work work work till I get it.
I have to.
~carmen~
Been practicing like crazy these few days, I wanna pass. Even by one mark, I want to. However much I practice, I keep thinking that "no, i can't do this. its impossible"...
But aft a lot a lot of practice, i'm finally getting some confidence back.
My end goal? Finish up piano, so I can start learning the guitar immediately after O levels =)
its hard, but work work work till I get it.
I have to.
~carmen~
Saturday, March 14, 2009
it's hard to lose.
WE LOST. we didn't get into the quarter finals of the debate nationals, aka JGs.
I know the whole team, especially Emily and Gerald, they put in their very best. Like everything we had. But I guess everything wasn't enough. I know we are supposed to be good sportsmen and all. I get it. BUT after everything you've put in, your heart, your sweat, your effort, your soul, your blood, everything... to lose... its almost unacceptable.
Maybe it was partly due to that "Mrs Grudge-judge"... holding on to grudges from last year. I rarely say this to people but she really is a "b***ch". I won't ever forget what she said to me last year. and for her to judge us twice, during Prelim round 1 and 3, I can't help thinking its more than just a coincidence. in a nutshell i hate her. she's just become my public enemy no. 1.
Cheng Hui: I'm so so so so sorry for letting you down. I know we were supposed to win, I know I was supposed to lead to to win, I thought I would be welcoming you at the airport with a smile. But now all I can give you is disappointment. I'm so sorry. Sam and Sanjeeb keeps telling us that as long as we had fun and learned something, that was all that mattered. But I still feel that it's my fault somehow. Don't blame the team. They really did well.
Mrs Priya: Thank you... so much. Thanks for the mcdonalds treat, thanks for accompanying us until late at night, thank you for rolling your eyes when "Mrs GRUDGE JUDGE" 'debriefed'us. thank you for comforting Em when she broke down. I know that you really support us alot, and I know that many a times we have caused you much trouble. Despite all that, you still stuck to us, through it all, sacrificing your time. I'm so sorry too, that we weren't able to produce results, to gain more recognition from the Principal especially. But just know that we are really grateful to you, for everything that you have done. We really are.
Emily and Gerald: Thanks y'all for putting in so much effort for this, especially Emily, juggling camp, rebuttals, case and reply all at the same time, and Gerald, who practiced reading incessantly after receiving the script. You guys have the potential to excel, and I believe that you will.
And to all our coaches. we will improve. we will become better. we have learned certain things the hard way, and I hope we'll make you proud the next time.
Oh, and to my friends and family, thank you for supporting me, and my passion.
I still feel sore about losing. I still feel that it might be somehow my fault. I still feel that I disappointed and let down a lot of people, whose hopes had be pinned on me, on the team more importantly. It's hard to lose, but it's the climb, the experience that counts in the end. right?
carr.
I know the whole team, especially Emily and Gerald, they put in their very best. Like everything we had. But I guess everything wasn't enough. I know we are supposed to be good sportsmen and all. I get it. BUT after everything you've put in, your heart, your sweat, your effort, your soul, your blood, everything... to lose... its almost unacceptable.
Maybe it was partly due to that "Mrs Grudge-judge"... holding on to grudges from last year. I rarely say this to people but she really is a "b***ch". I won't ever forget what she said to me last year. and for her to judge us twice, during Prelim round 1 and 3, I can't help thinking its more than just a coincidence. in a nutshell i hate her. she's just become my public enemy no. 1.
Cheng Hui: I'm so so so so sorry for letting you down. I know we were supposed to win, I know I was supposed to lead to to win, I thought I would be welcoming you at the airport with a smile. But now all I can give you is disappointment. I'm so sorry. Sam and Sanjeeb keeps telling us that as long as we had fun and learned something, that was all that mattered. But I still feel that it's my fault somehow. Don't blame the team. They really did well.
Mrs Priya: Thank you... so much. Thanks for the mcdonalds treat, thanks for accompanying us until late at night, thank you for rolling your eyes when "Mrs GRUDGE JUDGE" 'debriefed'us. thank you for comforting Em when she broke down. I know that you really support us alot, and I know that many a times we have caused you much trouble. Despite all that, you still stuck to us, through it all, sacrificing your time. I'm so sorry too, that we weren't able to produce results, to gain more recognition from the Principal especially. But just know that we are really grateful to you, for everything that you have done. We really are.
Emily and Gerald: Thanks y'all for putting in so much effort for this, especially Emily, juggling camp, rebuttals, case and reply all at the same time, and Gerald, who practiced reading incessantly after receiving the script. You guys have the potential to excel, and I believe that you will.
And to all our coaches. we will improve. we will become better. we have learned certain things the hard way, and I hope we'll make you proud the next time.
Oh, and to my friends and family, thank you for supporting me, and my passion.
I still feel sore about losing. I still feel that it might be somehow my fault. I still feel that I disappointed and let down a lot of people, whose hopes had be pinned on me, on the team more importantly. It's hard to lose, but it's the climb, the experience that counts in the end. right?
carr.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
say goodbye...
my godd... time really flies.
I really don't see any reason to go to school tmr. One of the reasons is that my two BFFs, chenghui and suxue are both gonna be overseas, and I left behind here in Singapore with Calista, who most likely would be slacking at home again...
everything is soo not going as planned. I just found out today that the freaking motivational workshops last till 6 pm every single day. We're basically paying to waste our time. What is the point of all these? They are just stupid con-mens trying to have a session, that would just make us happy, in the pretence of motivation and then get money from our pockets. It's just DUMB. I'm supposed to be practicing for my debate and this stupid thing comes in and ruins everything. i hate it.
I'm pretty worried about cheng hui and my 'nepal' classmates... would they all get sick? hope not.
No CSI tonight, and they shifted Bones to 12.30 am. Why does Channel 5 always cancel or shift all the good shows away? and endorse all the local shows which 90% are of poor standard. No wonder more and more people are getting Cable or paid tv.
goodbye to my friends, goodbye to my personal time, goodbye to my favourite shows. sometimes life really is THAT bad.
안녕히가세요 (annyeonghi gaseyo)
참는사랑
carmen
I really don't see any reason to go to school tmr. One of the reasons is that my two BFFs, chenghui and suxue are both gonna be overseas, and I left behind here in Singapore with Calista, who most likely would be slacking at home again...
everything is soo not going as planned. I just found out today that the freaking motivational workshops last till 6 pm every single day. We're basically paying to waste our time. What is the point of all these? They are just stupid con-mens trying to have a session, that would just make us happy, in the pretence of motivation and then get money from our pockets. It's just DUMB. I'm supposed to be practicing for my debate and this stupid thing comes in and ruins everything. i hate it.
I'm pretty worried about cheng hui and my 'nepal' classmates... would they all get sick? hope not.
No CSI tonight, and they shifted Bones to 12.30 am. Why does Channel 5 always cancel or shift all the good shows away? and endorse all the local shows which 90% are of poor standard. No wonder more and more people are getting Cable or paid tv.
goodbye to my friends, goodbye to my personal time, goodbye to my favourite shows. sometimes life really is THAT bad.
안녕히가세요 (annyeonghi gaseyo)
참는사랑
carmen
Monday, March 9, 2009
Rants.
Just ended a long day of debate... and I still have load of stuff like more debate, and homework to do, so i think i'll be mugging till the wee hours again. =) Thought I'd blog a while to type off the stress. So tiring... I wish all these work would just disappear... but as Mrs Choo would put it "fat hope slim chance"...
I'm having the worst migrane in weeks, and I wonder if I'm able to wake up for dance practice tmr. I'm putting my entire heart and soul into debate now, and I'm really really hoping that our team will make it to the quarter finals at the very least. Cheng Hui is leaving for Nepal in like 1 day, and that's like taking away half of the foundation of our debate team. Now we're like a UNO block waiting to fall, unless me and Emily and Gerald can hold it up long enough to break through.
Anyways, I'm pretty happy today, as we won our round in the NUS policy debates. I got "best speaker" which shows that I've finally gotten my game back. I've been dropping in standard for the past few debates, and THANK GOD i'm finally starting to pick up to my potential. Sometimes I always blame myself for being not good enough. This time I'll have to be at my best... jiayoux!
lovelovelove,
carmen
I'm having the worst migrane in weeks, and I wonder if I'm able to wake up for dance practice tmr. I'm putting my entire heart and soul into debate now, and I'm really really hoping that our team will make it to the quarter finals at the very least. Cheng Hui is leaving for Nepal in like 1 day, and that's like taking away half of the foundation of our debate team. Now we're like a UNO block waiting to fall, unless me and Emily and Gerald can hold it up long enough to break through.
Anyways, I'm pretty happy today, as we won our round in the NUS policy debates. I got "best speaker" which shows that I've finally gotten my game back. I've been dropping in standard for the past few debates, and THANK GOD i'm finally starting to pick up to my potential. Sometimes I always blame myself for being not good enough. This time I'll have to be at my best... jiayoux!
lovelovelove,
carmen
Friday, March 6, 2009
I need a hug.
My mind is in a whirl. I can't think straight, I can't do anything right! I know it's my second post today, but i really need to type. Everything's crashing down at once, and I don't know what to do.
Su xue's flight is about to take off i think, she's going home to China to see her family. We all should be lucky that our moms and dads are with us. I hope she has a more than wonderful time back home, though i'll miss her.
I really haven't been drawing lately. My 24/7 has been debate, homework, studying, debate, homework, studying. I wish i can break out of this routine asap and get back to my fashion designs. I feel like a walking routine zombie.
Cheng hui's leaving for Nepal soon, together with like half of my class, I suppose. Was initially selected too to go with them, but was sorta deemed medically unfit. I wish I was on that flight too. =(
Too many things have been happening lately, including this sudden relationship problem that entered my life. I've tried damn hard to hide it, forget it, but in the end, i decided the best way was just to tell my friends and sort it out. Everything's much better now, but still bad. But thanks anyways to my BFFs Suxue, Kharmei, Calista and Chenghui, for helping me sort it all out.
Sometimes I even wonder if I should just give up studies, and focus on debate, or the other way around. I'm always struggling for the balance between the two, one my passion, the other my obligation. It is difficult, but i still have to try. And my sciences and maths are just BAD. I flunked my CTs in those subjects, and I can never seem to forgive myself for that. I'm sill harping on that 'just passed' grade i got for Physics. I studied so hard. Another example of why life isn't fair.
changed my blogskin anyways, the previous one was becoming a burden on my eyes. This one's simple but neater. I miss some of my old friends. Wish I could call them up sometime...
I need a hug, real bad. And I'm going to get one from my parents now... hahax. yaya, I'm a mummy's and daddy's girl. just like Ms Kaur. =) I love her lessons btw.
lovelovelove
carmen
"don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine" Taylor Swift's I'd Lie. and I really would. maybe ;)
Su xue's flight is about to take off i think, she's going home to China to see her family. We all should be lucky that our moms and dads are with us. I hope she has a more than wonderful time back home, though i'll miss her.
I really haven't been drawing lately. My 24/7 has been debate, homework, studying, debate, homework, studying. I wish i can break out of this routine asap and get back to my fashion designs. I feel like a walking routine zombie.
Cheng hui's leaving for Nepal soon, together with like half of my class, I suppose. Was initially selected too to go with them, but was sorta deemed medically unfit. I wish I was on that flight too. =(
Too many things have been happening lately, including this sudden relationship problem that entered my life. I've tried damn hard to hide it, forget it, but in the end, i decided the best way was just to tell my friends and sort it out. Everything's much better now, but still bad. But thanks anyways to my BFFs Suxue, Kharmei, Calista and Chenghui, for helping me sort it all out.
Sometimes I even wonder if I should just give up studies, and focus on debate, or the other way around. I'm always struggling for the balance between the two, one my passion, the other my obligation. It is difficult, but i still have to try. And my sciences and maths are just BAD. I flunked my CTs in those subjects, and I can never seem to forgive myself for that. I'm sill harping on that 'just passed' grade i got for Physics. I studied so hard. Another example of why life isn't fair.
changed my blogskin anyways, the previous one was becoming a burden on my eyes. This one's simple but neater. I miss some of my old friends. Wish I could call them up sometime...
I need a hug, real bad. And I'm going to get one from my parents now... hahax. yaya, I'm a mummy's and daddy's girl. just like Ms Kaur. =) I love her lessons btw.
lovelovelove
carmen
"don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine" Taylor Swift's I'd Lie. and I really would. maybe ;)
Love story
Sorry sorry sorry for not posting so long... Been dealing with some personal issues lately.
I just realised that most of my friends have boyfriends, some who I don't even know of. It's a shocking reality to me, since, I believed that all of them were single. Ah well, as for me, I'm still sticking to my 19-year-old rule. or maybe not... As usual =)
One other thing is the burden that a relationship brings about. Like seriously, if they think that they are ready to take on that responsibility to a serious BGR then, by all means, go ahead! But, I think that only like 50% of the people whom I know who are dating (don't worry sec 4 friends, they are all younger than me and I'm a december kid, so definitely not sec 4=)), I think are really up to keeping the responsibility.
Well, I like to fantasize about being in a romance sometimes, just for the fun of it, but even if it really happened in reality, I wouldn't take the chance.
I hope my love story has a happy ending =)
xoxo,
carmen
I just realised that most of my friends have boyfriends, some who I don't even know of. It's a shocking reality to me, since, I believed that all of them were single. Ah well, as for me, I'm still sticking to my 19-year-old rule. or maybe not... As usual =)
One other thing is the burden that a relationship brings about. Like seriously, if they think that they are ready to take on that responsibility to a serious BGR then, by all means, go ahead! But, I think that only like 50% of the people whom I know who are dating (don't worry sec 4 friends, they are all younger than me and I'm a december kid, so definitely not sec 4=)), I think are really up to keeping the responsibility.
Well, I like to fantasize about being in a romance sometimes, just for the fun of it, but even if it really happened in reality, I wouldn't take the chance.
I hope my love story has a happy ending =)
xoxo,
carmen
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