Back home. or is it really?

Hey Y'all, I'm back. Korea was PHENOMENAL. It was the best holiday I've ever had in my entire 16 years of existence. Korean guys are really tall, and our tour guide (his name is Eric) said that it's because they all drank Ginseng Milk and ate Kimchi growing up. HAHA. Seriously Koreans are super tall, the guys on average are about 1.85m. Eric's a really nice guy, not to mention good-looking. haha. (The tour guide Eric, not the Eric in school. Had to add this disclaimer, just in case.)

On the first day of the trip, he asked me how old I was, so I replied like I was going to be 16 the next day. And guess what, he threw me a surprise birthday party and bought this huge yummo strawberry cream cake for me!! Believe it or not, i never did once have a birthday party (my birthdays were usually a quiet family affair), and that was one of the best things anyone ever did for me. We spilt the cake among the whole tour group. He's a real joker and made the entire trip more fun than it could ever have been=) It's not that I have a crush on him but he's just soo nice, the kinda person you can become instant best friends with. And that's what happened. Haha. I've supposedly been awarded with the title of the most attentive person when he starts talking about Korean traditions and history.

In all korean tour groups, there's this guy who follows the group around and does little errands like helping us off the bus, serving us during meals and doing the headcounts and reservations for restaurants, etc. His official title is the Photographer for the tour group, and ya, he does go around with his camera taking shots of us. Another tall and good-looking korean guy. LOLs. John's his name and he's still in Uni. This is his part time job. And it is pretty heart-wrenching to see that young, handsome chap working his head off to provide a good service. Like, with his face, he could play a lead in some Korean drama and be the next Bae Yong Joon. He doesn't have a salary, he gets his pay from selling his photos. So I spent alot on him. Haha... over 40 US dollars buying his photos of me and my family.

That totals up to two tall, young and handsome Korean guys that I have met. The members of our tour group were really enthusiastic as well, and I had a blast. When it came time to leave Incheon airport for home, I couldn't bear to leave... like it was so so upsetting that all these people that you played, lived, and laughed with, you're not going to see them again. Especially Eric and John. At the airport, I gave them the biggest smile I could and waved them goodbye, but when I turned around and walked into check-in, I was tearing up really bad, fighting the urge to cry. It's like you just made two wonderful friends and now you're just packed up and flying off and you might never ever get to see them ever again. It didn't help that my dad was rattling away at me for being so not alert and slow at the airport. I hate it when dad does that. He didn't shout or anything, just talking with a irritated expression, but somehow that always makes me feel like I'm not good enough. Basically, leaving the airport was difficult, saddening and just dreadful. Maybe it's just PMS or some other teenage hormone surge that I'm being this emotional. In the end I did cry in the plane, I took the window seat so I could turn and look out the window and no one would see. I still miss Korea. I vow to learn the language and go back someday. Eric told me it only takes 3 months to learn Korean.

To all the kind and sweet people who had wished me a happy birthday in one way or another... THANK YOU SO MUCH<3
You make me feel loved and cared for in this world. I could never have asked for a better SIXTEENth Birthday. xoxo.

You walked in and out of my life too fast. Too fast. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time to the day we first met.

Going away.

Yeah, I'm off to Korea. In fact, I'll be gone by tonight, so no blogging for one week...

I finally got my guitar yesterday and tuned it, but since i'm going away, I've to wait for like a week later before I actually get to play it seriously.

Still can't find a job. Like all those that I approached had vacancies, but, they only want people 18 and above. There's even one shop which is so ridiculous. It's advert says that it's hiring retail assistants for a youth fashion shop, and when I called up, the lady says she only wants to hire people 30 years and above in age. That, does not make any sense or logic to me. At all.

I'll have to do more job hunting when I come back from Korea. If not i'll forever feel guilty about buying anything at all this holiday season. My mom is still persuading me not to get a job, saying that we are financially just. Again, we'll see. I have a job idea, like a be-your-own-boss kinda thing, but i'm not sure if it'll work. You'll never know if you don't try, though. Argh, whatever.

VALENTINE's Day =)

Okay, I'm so so so so going to watch this movie. I mean like it has a whole range of star-studded cast, and they all happen to be some of my all-time favourite actors and actresses!!!!! Plus, Taylor Swift and Taylor Lautner are both in it. And it's really funny. The last part of the trailer left me laughing like mad. Ok, the joke's a little sick, but it works. Jessica Biel was like talking to Jamie Foxx, and she was lamenting that her only companion for Valentine's Day was her Blackberry. And she ended off "Thank God it vibrates." hahahaha... ok, if you don't get the joke, good for you too, you're really innocent. Sorry, i guess i'm just a little nuts. Haha.

Here's the full main cast of the show:

Anne Hathaway, Jessica Biel, Jessica Alba, Julia Roberts, Emma Roberts, Jennifer Garner, Queen Latifah, TAYLOR SWIFT, Shirley MacLaine, Taylor Lautner, Topher Grace, Jamie Foxx, Patrick Dempsey, Ashton Kutcher, Bradley Cooper, Eric Dane, George Lopez, and JOE JONAS.

It's ironic that Joe Jonas and Taylor Swift are like starring in the same movie after their not-so-clean breakup, and that Taylor Swift gets one of the supporting roles, while Joe Jonas gets to star as the voice of one of the character's dog. Yeah, pet dog. ... ... I can hear Marisol rolling her eyes going "Weird!"

Boyfriend or no boyfriend I'm so watching that movie.

P.S. I didn't post a super big trailer video for nothing...!! Please watch =) lols.

GRAH. I'm just so exasperated right now. Like argh argh argh. I still haven't got my guitar. =(
Apparently the delivery man is super late, and thus the Yamaha store doesn't have it's stock in yet, and hence, I can't buy the guitar. Damn. Damn. Damn.

It's been really long since i've last blogged, huh...? Yesterday, my family kinda went on a huge shopping spree, and gosh did we buy loads of stuff. I got a black/hotpink winter down jacket, and a pair of Columbia shoes, with hints of pink here and there. I don't know why, but i'm just obsessed with pink nowadays. Of course I'm not going to list every single thing we bought, I'm too lazy to do that, especially today, when it's raining. The sound of the rain and the cool breeze just makes me sleepy and lethargic.

I can't find a job. It's like the signs everywhere want people who are 18 years and above, and a handful being 16 years and above. It's super annoying, like totally, because I'M NOT EVEN SIXTEEN YET!!!! The wonders of being a December kid. My parents say that I don't have to work, but I want to, just for the experience (not to mention extra money). Given my busy holiday schedule, I have trouble finding a job that fits my timeline as well. Maybe I'll end up picking up the "toughest job in the world", according to Oprah Winfrey. That job happens to be a Housewife. Haha... training to be the Perfect Mom in the future. The problem? No pay. I'm thinking of maybe trying out for modelling at some local agencies, but i'm sure my parents will like object.

I just checked out both Kris Allen's and Adam Lambert's CDs. I vote Kris Allen. Seriously, Adam Lambert looks like a girl on his CD cover. I don't know why so many people like him, and his music, but he just puts me off. Besides, I've always been the country girl, so Kris Allen works more for me.

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I know i shouldn't be up so late, it's like 12.21 a.m. now, and it's not as if I have any stuff to study. Just watched the American Music Awards.... TAYLOR SWIFT SWIPED OFF THE MAJOR AWARDS again! She won like 5 out of 6 of the awards she was nominated for, if i remember correctly, including Artist of the Year. Michael Jackson was also nominated for Artist of the Year, and i was kinda sitting on the fence between Taylor and MJ. Above is a shocked picture of Taylor Swift, who just got the news. Unfortunately, she was in London, and unable to attend the AMAs. Well, they got her live on video feed, though. =) Adam Lambert was there performing, and he kissed one of his performers in front of the camera. The performer was male, so it was pretty shocking. Not that I have any prejudices against gays, i think they have the right to do what they want, I think i just don't like Adam Lambert. It's strange why they didn't ask Kris Allen to perform.

I'm meeting my friend Jane tmr. She's like my best bud in Primary school... Haha. I think Joping and Lihao still remember her. I promised to help her with her make-up for her prom, so tmr we're meeting to get some makeup essentials. It's pretty much been months since i've hanged out with her... the last time being the both of us watching the movie Wildchild together. I'm thankful that she still keeps in touch with me, and makes the effort to do so. They aren't many friends like her anymore.... Like many ppl just forget you once you're in a different class or something next year. I find that disappointing and upsetting. I hope I can keep in touch with as many ppl in 4H as possible... even after like 40 years later... Hahax

I'm going to get my guitar on Wednesday. I dropped by Yamaha on Sunday, but they said stock for the guitar I wanted was only coming in on Wednesday. Another trip it is, then... I'm pretty excited about learning the guitar and all... I've read up quite abit, and all I need is the thing to practise on. I hope to at least master the beginners level, as in chords and picking, etc by the end of december. When JC starts, I doubt i'll have this kinda freedom. Below? the guitar i'm gonna get =)

ok, my eyes are shutting on me now, so i'd better be doing what i should be doing... sleeping.

xoxo.

forever and always

i've been having the worst stomach cramps today. It's absolutely killing me and no painkiller seems to work. Argh. I was supposed to go guitar shopping today, but i guessed it just has to be postponed to tomorrow. Hopefully I don't wake up writhing in pain again tomorrow morning. It's just horrid. Since I was pretty much confined to the bed today, I spent the whole day thinking about the whole year. Like from the start of this year to Graduation Night, I felt like I just dug all the memories out and played them out like videotapes. The first day of school, homework, debate, crazy stuff, my major crush, getting over the major crush (or should i say ex major crush), writing songs, mugging like crazy, shopping like mad for prom, and finally prom itself. I focused alot on Prom though, it seemed like necessary to replay every single second of that night. It's kinda weird that I can actually recall every single thing that happened, how I felt in specific moments. The look on people's faces, and stuff. I hope I never ever forget those moments.

It's sad to think that you're not going to sit in class with your classmates, popping ricola or tic-tacs into your mouth, desperately trying to stay awake and concentrate on what the teacher is talking about. It's upsetting to think that the days where we would buy canteen food and hang out at the same table having small talk about girl stuff or trying to cram last minute facts into our heads for that test after recess anymore. I'll miss the times when i'd walk home with suxue, or walk to the train station with cheng hui, and just pour our hearts out to each other. I'll think about the days where me, kharmei, suxue and calista would have instant noodles at the void deck shop outside school which has since closed, and then we would move on to get our instant noodles at the 7-eleven and just eat under a void deck table nearby. Those were the days, huh? It's funny that throughout the entire year I was wishing so hard for today to come, the end of O levels, and now that today has finally arrived, I suddenly wanna go back to sitting in that stuffy ol' classroom we can proudly call our second home, eating the school food that we used to complain about, mugging hard for the exams we used to loathe. It's almost unbelievable that all that is gone, disappeared with time, and all that is left is just these memories that I will hold on to till the end of my life.

it's a cool night, nice weather to sleep in. Looks like it's going to rain tonight. I hope it does, sometimes it's soothing to wake up in the midst of the night and just listen to the rain hit the ground and the window panes.

Taylor Swift's newly released piano version of forever and always is just simply beautiful. I worked out the chords by ear and am hoping to figure out the right hand part soon enough.

it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong, it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone, I was there when you said forever and always.

BEST friends. FOREVER and ALWAYS.

PROM.

Pre message: If you are from 4H, please read the message at the bottom of this post. =) the BLUE one. oh, read the PURPLE one too... ok, just read the whole post.

ok, i know i had my reservations before, but PROM WAS FUN!

first and foremost, CONGRATULATIONS VERONICA for winning Prom Queen and Best dressed. I hope you're enjoying your ipod... haha... anyway, you looked beautiful last night, and you definitely, without doubt, deserved both titles. I'm so happy for you!! Congrats again=)

Su Xue is leaving for China today... She wrote me a letter yesterday, and I cried after reading it. I'm so so going to miss her, i can't believe i'm going to have to wait till next year before i can see her again. I'm meeting her later, to pass her something, it's actually a letter, and a friendship bracelet which I woke up early in the morning to make.

So, Prom was great, wonderful, fantastic, (insert all other good words you know here). Seriously, i had fun, even though i didn't have dinner... haha. We danced, laughed, snapped shots and what nots. Actually it was a pity, that we didn't have a class photo all dressed up. i'll be compiling a video, and only selected friends will get to view it... hahax. OH, and there's something important i need to ask of y'all...

ANYONE FROM 4H, IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE SEND ME YOUR PROM PICS... i want to compile a scrap book of 2009, so i will need more photos. if you have any pictures of me, with me, without me, whatever, just pictures of 4H people, then PLEASE send to me. THANK YOU!!!
i'll send you my pics in exchange if you like.

ok... i have lots of picture uploading to do...

TO 4H:
thank you, each and every single person in 4H. Thank you for just being in this class, and adding colours to it, making the memories of this year, this class, all the more unique and truly ours to keep. Thank you for being such wonderful classmates. Sorry, if i have managed to offend, or make anyone of you feel upset, or awkward, even for one second, throughout this whole year. Y'all have been the best classmates ever. All of you looked beautiful and smart last night. Time just passes so quickly, and before you know it, we may soon be going our separate ways. However, THIS is NOT the end! We may be going to separate schools, and living our lives the way we want to from now onwards, but we'll forever be 4H'2009. Thank you, 4H, for making 2009 one of the BEST years of my life.