I've never felt more indignant, accused, angry and worried at the same time in my entire life. I don't believe that such a person with such a twisted, black heart actually exists. I hate him. i hate him.

Everyone who has heard the full story knows that we are not are fault. Why should our club close down, because of mistakes that he had made, and is trying to push on us. I really hate this. If i could turn back time, i wouldn't have made the blunder of taking his words seriously, which led to today's consequences. Again, another reason why you shouldn't trust people easily. Even teachers. What kind of role model is he potraying to us? He's acting like an overgrown spoilt kid, who just wants to close down our club, because he got a deserved scolding from the principal about something he obviously did wrong. Why do we have to take the brunt of his mistake, and his anger?

I swear that this is the very last time that we will bow our heads to him. If he doesn't accept the "apology" in the case where he clearly knows we shouldn't be apologising, we will leave his shadow and seek higher ground. We will rebuild ourselves and shine brighter than ever, and make him regret that he ever drove us away in the first place. We will bring glory and glamour to our cause and our school in our very own right, and do it much better than before, without his hinderance. We will excel in our studies as well. We will show him that he, has done nothing to damage us, but made us stronger, more united and more determined to prove ourselves. Even if we had made the mistake, we deserve a second chance, after ALL that we have done for the school. Doesn't he even recognise that? He couldn't be in his seat because of us. He forgets that the problem solving of A.a.W project was done by our exco. The other ccas weren't even as efficient as us. Has he forgot? How none of the other cca people were able to speak and engage the crowd. How he praised us before, and now that he's mad, put down everything we've down in one shot, though we didnt even have a black dot on our track record before. If even murderers and criminals deserve second chances, why shouldn't we? all the mistake that we did was to hand in a proposal late, and not enforce lights out for a camp, because students were up studying. Other camps during the same period had the police invited in for noise created. What was our incident in comparison to theirs?

He has driven our faces to the ground. I'll bite the dust and spit it in his face.

heyos to the world. i'm still here, not dead yet.

Just went past a well, not-so-horrifying-as-i-thought block test, only to be met with greater trouble, bigger pile off bullshit to clear off.

It seems in troubled times, you find out who really are the people who stand by you, and who are the bull-crappers who just give empty talk, and do otherwise.

i'll blog more tomorrow. fustration needs sleep.

i wish people could realise that i'm trying my best. I'm putting in effort to try to meet their expectations, and not be a burden at the same time. But i'm worn. Both physically and emotionally. I'm trying so so so hard to be everything everyone expects me to be. Everything but me.

Why do I do that? I don't know.

Sometimes the most elaborate feelings can be just put in a few words. Sometimes a few words can cut you down, to a bare nothing.